hex000f
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Hi everyone,
1. I have a few questions for other people who find sexual pleasure in diapers:
First, a little background:
I've known about my diaper fetish for a while, but I also had some terrible issues with it in the past which I posted about here:
https://www.adisc.org/forum/showthr...-it-and-you-can-too-Don-t-give-up-on-yourself
In the present, I am doing much better but still have some questions/issues. I feel these may be from me feeling "guarded" about sexual pleasure due to my past.
btw, I also feel comfort and security from wearing in addition to sexual pleasure.
1. Despite the fact that I can feel some pleasure from wearing and using diapers, it seems like I can only manage to ejaculate by manually masturbating by rubbing my penis when I change myself. Is this limit normal?
2. I feel like I get "turned on" by forced regression scenarios where some sort of control of the situation is taken away from the wearer. I don't mean making them literally incontinent though. Apparently, looking at artwork involving diapers can sometimes have this effect, even if its not a forced regression piece. I think this may be because the characters depicted have never been potty trained and thus have full "freedom" to use their diapers. I can also tell myself that its fantasy artwork and thus I don't need to feel constrained about how I feel? I've found that this reaction is easier to do with animated art and/or babyfur art vs seeing a child's diaper poking out in public. Another piece of this puzzle is that I struggled with leaks for years before finally figuring out that I was pulling my diaper up too high on my body. I haven't had a standing up leak since then which was about half a year ago, but I still don't feel 100% comfortable peeing when I'm standing on a surface that I don't want to leak on. I still remember trying a store brand diaper and peeing without any hesitation at all. That was before I realized how leaky store brand adult diapers are though. Therefore I wonder if what I'm desiring is freedom to void without worry?
3. I feel like I have trouble feeling aroused without feeling I need to masturbate as soon as I feel that way. I think this pattern started back when I masturbated more then the usual number of times per day to try and keep my mind off of my fetish. Though the fact that I didn't understand the fetish at the time and worried about it may have caused me think about it more. Also, since back then I was accused of having a pedophelic sexual orientation I felt like getting too aroused would make me do something that I shouldn't.
Fast forward to the present when I'm doing much better with self acceptance, however I still wonder if its ok to feel very aroused without masturbating until much later. Do people do that?
After typing this, I guess I just feel "guarded" about being turned on by my diapers unless I'm trying to masturbate. However I still welcome advice.
1. I have a few questions for other people who find sexual pleasure in diapers:
First, a little background:
I've known about my diaper fetish for a while, but I also had some terrible issues with it in the past which I posted about here:
https://www.adisc.org/forum/showthr...-it-and-you-can-too-Don-t-give-up-on-yourself
In the present, I am doing much better but still have some questions/issues. I feel these may be from me feeling "guarded" about sexual pleasure due to my past.
btw, I also feel comfort and security from wearing in addition to sexual pleasure.
1. Despite the fact that I can feel some pleasure from wearing and using diapers, it seems like I can only manage to ejaculate by manually masturbating by rubbing my penis when I change myself. Is this limit normal?
2. I feel like I get "turned on" by forced regression scenarios where some sort of control of the situation is taken away from the wearer. I don't mean making them literally incontinent though. Apparently, looking at artwork involving diapers can sometimes have this effect, even if its not a forced regression piece. I think this may be because the characters depicted have never been potty trained and thus have full "freedom" to use their diapers. I can also tell myself that its fantasy artwork and thus I don't need to feel constrained about how I feel? I've found that this reaction is easier to do with animated art and/or babyfur art vs seeing a child's diaper poking out in public. Another piece of this puzzle is that I struggled with leaks for years before finally figuring out that I was pulling my diaper up too high on my body. I haven't had a standing up leak since then which was about half a year ago, but I still don't feel 100% comfortable peeing when I'm standing on a surface that I don't want to leak on. I still remember trying a store brand diaper and peeing without any hesitation at all. That was before I realized how leaky store brand adult diapers are though. Therefore I wonder if what I'm desiring is freedom to void without worry?
3. I feel like I have trouble feeling aroused without feeling I need to masturbate as soon as I feel that way. I think this pattern started back when I masturbated more then the usual number of times per day to try and keep my mind off of my fetish. Though the fact that I didn't understand the fetish at the time and worried about it may have caused me think about it more. Also, since back then I was accused of having a pedophelic sexual orientation I felt like getting too aroused would make me do something that I shouldn't.
Fast forward to the present when I'm doing much better with self acceptance, however I still wonder if its ok to feel very aroused without masturbating until much later. Do people do that?
After typing this, I guess I just feel "guarded" about being turned on by my diapers unless I'm trying to masturbate. However I still welcome advice.