Just so everyone knows, I've just been a stalker (lurker) as I was told tonight on discord. I've been lurking, I guess. I was trying to find out how people dealt with realistic personal issues. Over the past several years of my issue, I've read different things online, and found that I don't mind my issue anymore, though I don't, and won't, flaunt It. I've got a real issue, and 15 years in, I've finally found I love my diapers. I love that they keep my problem hidden. I'm kinda like a magician that way. I've got a friend, now, who is my adult. Not a mommy or a daddy. Just - my adult. I never thought about it until my adult asked me about my bathroom habits a few years ago. I admitted I had a problem, and that person had a desire to assist someone. It turned out to be me, since we were already fri nds, and I was as a low point in my life, due to my bladder issue. I was not taken advantage of, btw. I told my story , and my adult told theirs. It was a weird understanding of sorts. My adult recently found out I was looking at sites, and decided I needed to create an account to be accountable for my actions. I still get in trouble from my adult if I don't do what is required, like taking out my trash and making my house stink, or not having a new diaper ready before I change myself, or - even, having my delivery onthe porch, but my adult stopped by just minutes after UPS came to drop off my undies. This is a good adult, and one I trust, so when I get in trouble, I know it's done with a caring nature - not one from malice, or Ill-intent. I was told to log on to the sites I've been spying on, create an account and apologize for my behavior. I started this tonight, because I know if I don't - this coming weekend will be one of punishments. I don't like that. I know I have to be responsible for my actions. I need to make it known that I was wrong. I was directed to make friends on the sites, so my adult could see that I wasn't just playing around. I tried. I logged on to the first page, and also logged into a chat room. I made no friends, although I talked with several helpful people. All I needed was one new person to send me a friend request, and I would not have a punishment this week, and a different One for next weekend. Granted, my "punishments" are Never horrible, or painful, but I don't like them. I've been cathed this weekend, and was hoping to be free, on my own accord for a while. My new punishment is to remain cathed for the rest of the week, as well as begin using cloth diapers during the week, and through this upcoming weekend. If I log into the other sites during the week, and create accounts, I'm hoping my punishment just stays the way it is. If not, then I have to take it in stride. I know the bag is ready, and I think the chastity cage is ready for use. Not so sure yet. My
What I do know is... I need to create accounts. I need to apologize for stalking - or - lurking.
I really am sorry for that. I was just looking around for info on cloth diapers, and because I knew it was my next viable option in the future. However...... my adult saw it coming, and planned for a time to make me realize my failure, and - planned to make it part of a punishmen before it became my reality. I didn't want that. But, tonight - it's my first night in cloth. I wanted to prepare, and I wasn't given that benefit, to set my mind at ease.
So, now, I'm cathed since Saturday morning, as well as wearing cloth as of tonight, as well as through the week. I don't know what this weekend will hold if I don't completely finish my goal of becoming a member and getting a friend request on various sites.
However - I'm really sorry I was stalking/lurking, and not responding to the posts I've been reading. It was wrong of me to do that. I have no valid reason why I didn't.
Please forgive my transgressions.
What I do know is... I need to create accounts. I need to apologize for stalking - or - lurking.
I really am sorry for that. I was just looking around for info on cloth diapers, and because I knew it was my next viable option in the future. However...... my adult saw it coming, and planned for a time to make me realize my failure, and - planned to make it part of a punishmen before it became my reality. I didn't want that. But, tonight - it's my first night in cloth. I wanted to prepare, and I wasn't given that benefit, to set my mind at ease.
So, now, I'm cathed since Saturday morning, as well as wearing cloth as of tonight, as well as through the week. I don't know what this weekend will hold if I don't completely finish my goal of becoming a member and getting a friend request on various sites.
However - I'm really sorry I was stalking/lurking, and not responding to the posts I've been reading. It was wrong of me to do that. I have no valid reason why I didn't.
Please forgive my transgressions.
