TheMat said:
Trust me I wanted to quit and tried to for at least 15 years. I thought getting married and having a wife that gives me all the sex I want would replace my dl desires but it has not. The last couple years I've finally had some level of acceptance for myself and I believe acknowledging my desires and acting on them in a healthy way is much better for me than the constant shame of not being able to stop. In short, I realized quitting wasn't going to be an option for me, and that doesn't make me, or anyone else that comes to this conclusion, a failure.
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Archieronie, anton, and others,
Thanks! It's a timing issue now. She's a teacher and having a rough week with her class so I'm thinking not this week but maybe this weekend I can get her into a positive mood and try then.
I'm thinking the convo would start something like, "remember what I told you about me during marriage counseling? I didn't let you ask a lot of questions then but I think I'm ready to talk more about that now..."
And then go from there.
The real thing is we all do something to feel better or good.
Some things are second nature .
Some spend money others eat .
There are those that bite nails or even horde things .
It's tied to thousands of years of evolution survival things that hurt we remember as not to get hurt .
Feeling good is the same way we tend to get programmed at a young age .
Diapers feel good we have a lot of nerves down there .
For most everything there is a strong sex drive to reproduce those nerves are for that and also protect that part of us also.
Us guys wear our sexual organs on the outside of us so the diapers feel good to us.
Now you spent years wearing diapers until you were potty training.
Now as a infants diapers are not bad getting changed feels good mommy taking care of you dose also.
Now with your brain growing so fast your attention span is short so you can be redirected at potty training.
You don't remember how they feel and your shamed into not liking them you don't want to be a baby do you.
You want to be a big boy or girl.
So to please mom or dad we change.
Now for some those good feeling wearing diapers are still with some they never wanted out of them.
Others was put into diapers for bed wetting or pants wetting so those feelings resurfacing .
Now our miraculous body is a chemical thinking machine as much as a thinking machine.
The fight or flight thing and feeling good also.
At an older age we tend to remember what feels good and we want to repeat that over and over.
Some of the chemical reactions are waking from those Early Times and it feels good you get comfort cuz you're remembering that time
Maybe not so much conscious remembering more a feeling remembering.
But being different individuals and all our brains working slightly different there's so many different ways that's why we are so different and we can't pin it down to one thing that causes to be how we are.
But I still think these evolutionary traits for survival have an effect on us because it's how we've done for thousands of years instinct.
Being put in the diapers are trying Diapers at a older age it feels good and that reprograms and wires your brain.
Also the chemical part of you that's why you get Prime for fight or flight when you see something the chemical start working your brain preparing you to run.
A wonderful thing me amazing body is not everything's cut in stone not everything fits in a square around Peg
There's some things that are so much a part of you that they're very hard or almost impossible to reprogram.
We have smokers that can't quit they've tried and tried to can't we've had alcoholics that can't quit no matter what they do.
My sister is anorexic she can't quit that either.
There are other things that people can't give up no matter what they do and there are some who can.
But we can't be lumped into one group because we're all so different or some can some can't in our case this is tied to our sexual drive.
Whether we use it sexually or not the comfort thing is ingrained in us.
For there are drives within our bodies that over thousands of years were created so that we could continue as a species.
For if we did not enjoy it we would be extinct being those drives are very strong over thousands of years created through evolution.
Just not the norm for everybody we just happen to be that percentage hits fell into this of liking diapers.
So many of us tried giving it up because we didn't feel right even though it was a very strong Drive in society didn't like it.
I didn't accept myself until 48 and I tried spent three years cold turkey but then I felt the dead inside why I live
And all this pain and suffering over a piece of cloth pins and plastic pants.
So I accepted this is a part of me it's who I turned out ok.
There are worst things to be murderers robbers abusers of women.
I just like the confort of diapers it take me to my happy place no drugs or alcohol.