ltaluv said:I'm having a rough time of it. The urgency and spasms are still very painful, and I'm still reluctant to take enough of the painkillers the doctor gave me to keep the pain at bay. I have to work if I want to get paid, and if I'm loopy from narcotics it's going to be hard to keep my job for long. I'm having accidents most days, and more than one a day isn't uncommon. Some of them are because the urgency is so painful that it's not worth trying to hold it in, but most of them are because the muscle contractions are strong enough that there's no possible way I could hold it in. If I can get to the bathroom at the first sign of feeling like I need to go I can do OK, but if I'm not by a restroom, or if I'm in the middle of something that I can't put down, then it pretty quickly turns into an unstoppable urge.
My urologist appointment is the day after tomorrow, so I'll see then where we go from here.
You know you keep answering your own question, right?
-The urges are extremely painful.
-Trying to hold it anyways makes it worse.
-And even with holding it, you still tend to leak anyways.
-There are also times when you can't hold it at all, and end up fully using your diaper.
-Lastly, those few times when you just give in to using your diaper right away, it is much less painful.
It's not difficult to extrapolate your currently best solution from this. So why keep fighting what you already know is inevitable, and also results in your best situation anyways?