I've been IC for a little over 2 years now, and while my bladder spasms have been becoming less and less frequent day and night (woo!) I still have a constant dribble (boo!) that keeps me in diapers 24/7.
The weird part about it is, I've been a DL since I was born, and when I went through puberty it became a fetish, and when I became IC it was sort of bittersweet (for obvious reasons). All through the past 2 years I've been dealing with IC, I've had the desire to wear swing from a strong compulsion to a strong revulsion (like it does with many), but the fact is my bladder doesn't care how I feel about it, I either wear or end up with wet pants lol.
Lately though I've kind of mellowed out to consider it just that I have to wear absorbent underwear. There's not much magic in it left, as its more utilitarian. I even find myself not putting on a dry diaper immediately after I take off a wet one, waiting until the dampness down there gets uncomfortable enough to take action sometimes. If this trend continues, and my bladder spasms go away entirely I might even switch to something thinner and less absorbent like -GASP- Depends?!?! (hahaha I wouldn't go that far). I don't know if the desire would come back if I stopped wearing, as I don't really have that option, but the "it's no fun anymore" aspect of it kind of has me bummed out.
Anyway, have any other DL-became-IC people experienced this? Or anyone else with insight?
The weird part about it is, I've been a DL since I was born, and when I went through puberty it became a fetish, and when I became IC it was sort of bittersweet (for obvious reasons). All through the past 2 years I've been dealing with IC, I've had the desire to wear swing from a strong compulsion to a strong revulsion (like it does with many), but the fact is my bladder doesn't care how I feel about it, I either wear or end up with wet pants lol.
Lately though I've kind of mellowed out to consider it just that I have to wear absorbent underwear. There's not much magic in it left, as its more utilitarian. I even find myself not putting on a dry diaper immediately after I take off a wet one, waiting until the dampness down there gets uncomfortable enough to take action sometimes. If this trend continues, and my bladder spasms go away entirely I might even switch to something thinner and less absorbent like -GASP- Depends?!?! (hahaha I wouldn't go that far). I don't know if the desire would come back if I stopped wearing, as I don't really have that option, but the "it's no fun anymore" aspect of it kind of has me bummed out.
Anyway, have any other DL-became-IC people experienced this? Or anyone else with insight?
