ErtaiBenoni
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- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
- Little
- Incontinent
As foretold in my intro to this site I mentioned that I recently told my wife about being a "little" and I would tell that story.
I am in my early thirties with a birthday coming up soon. I have had a pacifier and a bottle before. I had both about maybe 7-9 years ago. I went through a purge cycle before I got married. I told myself that this isn't really who I am and what I enjoy. Of course, I was lying to myself, but I gave an honest effort to be "normal." I got married a few years ago but ended up getting another pacifier. I hid it and used it whenever she wasn't around.
I finally came clean with my wife last week. It was really hard and I was shaking as I did it I was so nervous. It took me so long to finally come out and say it that when I simply showed her my paci I am pretty sure she was relieved it wasn't anything worse. After that is when I decided to make an account on here.
She never did get mad or angry that I kept it from her or about me liking these items also. I feel like she has every right to be mad since I should have been up front about it. She says she doesn't fully understand it but if it is what I need to be happy then she supports it!
She asks me to what extent does this go and I told her everything I could possibly think of. I told her I wouldn't keep another secret from her.
I came home the next day from work to find a humongous teddy bear in the bed that we decided should be named Mr. Brown. As before mentioned, my birthday is coming up so I ended up getting a much better paci from pacifiersrus (the one with the larger shield and a silicone teat size 7). I splurged and got the glow in the dark button also. She helped me pick it out even. I am using it right now and I have slept with it every night since it came in. I am absolutely in love with it. She thinks it is cute. I got a bottle from them also but I don't feel quite right using it in front of her yet. Although I have no trouble using my paci for some reason.
I realize that I should never have kept anything like this from her and I still feel bad that I did. I was fighting my own demons. I know now telling her was one of the best decisions I ever made. I couldn't be more lucky to have her in my life.
I am in my early thirties with a birthday coming up soon. I have had a pacifier and a bottle before. I had both about maybe 7-9 years ago. I went through a purge cycle before I got married. I told myself that this isn't really who I am and what I enjoy. Of course, I was lying to myself, but I gave an honest effort to be "normal." I got married a few years ago but ended up getting another pacifier. I hid it and used it whenever she wasn't around.
I finally came clean with my wife last week. It was really hard and I was shaking as I did it I was so nervous. It took me so long to finally come out and say it that when I simply showed her my paci I am pretty sure she was relieved it wasn't anything worse. After that is when I decided to make an account on here.
She never did get mad or angry that I kept it from her or about me liking these items also. I feel like she has every right to be mad since I should have been up front about it. She says she doesn't fully understand it but if it is what I need to be happy then she supports it!
She asks me to what extent does this go and I told her everything I could possibly think of. I told her I wouldn't keep another secret from her.
I came home the next day from work to find a humongous teddy bear in the bed that we decided should be named Mr. Brown. As before mentioned, my birthday is coming up so I ended up getting a much better paci from pacifiersrus (the one with the larger shield and a silicone teat size 7). I splurged and got the glow in the dark button also. She helped me pick it out even. I am using it right now and I have slept with it every night since it came in. I am absolutely in love with it. She thinks it is cute. I got a bottle from them also but I don't feel quite right using it in front of her yet. Although I have no trouble using my paci for some reason.
I realize that I should never have kept anything like this from her and I still feel bad that I did. I was fighting my own demons. I know now telling her was one of the best decisions I ever made. I couldn't be more lucky to have her in my life.