cm90210
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They say confession is good for the soul, here's mine. Maybe I should feel more guilty than I do, doubt it, but maybe I should feel less.
I have a minor outpatient surgery on my nose coming up that is wholly unrelated to anything in the diaper world. In the US, before every surgery I've ever had, a nurse calls to do a patient history, talk medications, preparation and what to expect afterwards. I had a call this week and we went through my history line by line. As some of you might remember, I had a few year bout with bed wetting that apparently was sleep-apnea / weight related. Once I dropped 80lbs, it essentially vanished. Here and there, if I'm drugged up or sick, I find that I end up wetting in sleep but even then, I'm usually at least partially delirious - it's not full blown enuresis like I had developed before.
Anyways, the nurse was going over my medical history with me and it came to the question of bladder/incontinence. I said that, "I have had issues with night time incontinence that I managed with disposable briefs..." true enough, although not precisely clear that it's a past issue for all intents and purposes.
She replied, "so it's a night time thing, only when you're sleeping or drowsy?"
"Yeah, pretty much," I said.
"So when you come to surgery, I'd just wear what you normally wear to sleep in."
"Ok," I said.
I've had a similar conversation in the past with a pre op nurse, just when the issue was actually current, and she had said more or less the exact same thing. I know that nocturnal enuresis is still listed on some of my charts (in the US, each hospital chain/company has their own record of you; and they don't necessarily share information; so in one, I know it's listed as resolved but in at least one other, it's still listed as an active problem - that was penciled in by a sleep doctor I saw for a second opinion for this issue way back when it started) - but I'm fairly that it wasn't listed in my problems for this particular surgery clinic. Little fib, at least I felt like it was.
Later in the conversation, she started going over what to do when I come. "When you show up on the day of surgery, you'll want to wear comfortable loose fitting clothes. You can wear your incontinence brief under some shorts. You'll change into a gown but it's ok to wear that underneath..." she went on to other details without comment, "bring someone to drive me, prescriptions, etc."
I didn't stop her to correct it.
So here's the thing. I feel guilty lol. I don't think I really have enough of an issue to justify wearing a diaper to this. And I kind of misled her to think that it's a current instead of past problem. I feel like I lied. I mean, i don't wear diapers to bed every night; usually every other and just for fun. But I do very intentionally still put them on when I take sleeping medication or narcotic pain meds and the like. That's on occasion though and I'm not sure like I said, how much I wet in sleep or delirium. In any case, it's not proper enuresis anymore.
And yet, as has been discussed on a related thread, diapers for me are a very real psychological self soothing tool. I cope with stress by wearing them and it's very helpful. I'll be super super stressed and scared on that day - and no doubt drugged up (the surgery I'm having is notoriously painful). So I feel like I do actually NEED my diaper but maybe for slightly different reasons than I led the nurse to chart on me for? Unsure of what to do now.
My wife will tell me to forget it, and leave the diapers at home because she's embarrassed of them and says the hospital staff will joke about me behind my back, which is probably true. Yet I'm still conflicted...And now I feel guilty and stressed about ALL of it lol.
There's my confession. Now how about some support?
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I have a minor outpatient surgery on my nose coming up that is wholly unrelated to anything in the diaper world. In the US, before every surgery I've ever had, a nurse calls to do a patient history, talk medications, preparation and what to expect afterwards. I had a call this week and we went through my history line by line. As some of you might remember, I had a few year bout with bed wetting that apparently was sleep-apnea / weight related. Once I dropped 80lbs, it essentially vanished. Here and there, if I'm drugged up or sick, I find that I end up wetting in sleep but even then, I'm usually at least partially delirious - it's not full blown enuresis like I had developed before.
Anyways, the nurse was going over my medical history with me and it came to the question of bladder/incontinence. I said that, "I have had issues with night time incontinence that I managed with disposable briefs..." true enough, although not precisely clear that it's a past issue for all intents and purposes.
She replied, "so it's a night time thing, only when you're sleeping or drowsy?"
"Yeah, pretty much," I said.
"So when you come to surgery, I'd just wear what you normally wear to sleep in."
"Ok," I said.
I've had a similar conversation in the past with a pre op nurse, just when the issue was actually current, and she had said more or less the exact same thing. I know that nocturnal enuresis is still listed on some of my charts (in the US, each hospital chain/company has their own record of you; and they don't necessarily share information; so in one, I know it's listed as resolved but in at least one other, it's still listed as an active problem - that was penciled in by a sleep doctor I saw for a second opinion for this issue way back when it started) - but I'm fairly that it wasn't listed in my problems for this particular surgery clinic. Little fib, at least I felt like it was.
Later in the conversation, she started going over what to do when I come. "When you show up on the day of surgery, you'll want to wear comfortable loose fitting clothes. You can wear your incontinence brief under some shorts. You'll change into a gown but it's ok to wear that underneath..." she went on to other details without comment, "bring someone to drive me, prescriptions, etc."
I didn't stop her to correct it.
So here's the thing. I feel guilty lol. I don't think I really have enough of an issue to justify wearing a diaper to this. And I kind of misled her to think that it's a current instead of past problem. I feel like I lied. I mean, i don't wear diapers to bed every night; usually every other and just for fun. But I do very intentionally still put them on when I take sleeping medication or narcotic pain meds and the like. That's on occasion though and I'm not sure like I said, how much I wet in sleep or delirium. In any case, it's not proper enuresis anymore.
And yet, as has been discussed on a related thread, diapers for me are a very real psychological self soothing tool. I cope with stress by wearing them and it's very helpful. I'll be super super stressed and scared on that day - and no doubt drugged up (the surgery I'm having is notoriously painful). So I feel like I do actually NEED my diaper but maybe for slightly different reasons than I led the nurse to chart on me for? Unsure of what to do now.
My wife will tell me to forget it, and leave the diapers at home because she's embarrassed of them and says the hospital staff will joke about me behind my back, which is probably true. Yet I'm still conflicted...And now I feel guilty and stressed about ALL of it lol.
There's my confession. Now how about some support?
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