paddedabdl323
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- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
I have been an ABDL since i was 12 years old. I have attempted to quit probably more times than i can count now that im about 29 years old. I have a wife who loves me enough to accept me, and to help me find a better way than this.
I have been told since day 1 that quitting is impossible, and that embracing it is the best thing to do. There just has to be a better way than this. Im sorry if i have offended anyone, I really am. I understand alot of what you are feeling when indulging in ABDL behavior, and you likely will be able to level with me as well. I plan to go get professional help, and to make a very real attempt at doing something about this.
Tonight I approached my wife with a diaper on. She has known for sometime about it. I told her, "Im sorry. I cant help it." She lovingly said that its ok. I knew she wasnt comfortable with it. She responded in the way someone who legitimately loves me would, did research in an attempt to find out more. She wanted to help me, so she went to professional resources. I do this, and even feel happy for a moment. But then i get to a point to where i hate myself, (not enough to inflict self harm of any kind but still...)
Should we really be embracing this? Please understand again that this isnt meant to offend. If you do plan to respond, please dont judge. Understand that i have been told 100 times over to embrace it. I feel like its close minded to assume that this is the only way.
Understand where my feelings are for everyone with ABDL feelings. I have a tremendous love for the people of this community, as we share the same struggle. You all likely have felt a self hate for yourself like i do now. Believe me when i have no intention or desire of any kind to offend. There just has to be a better way to be happy than this.
I have been told since day 1 that quitting is impossible, and that embracing it is the best thing to do. There just has to be a better way than this. Im sorry if i have offended anyone, I really am. I understand alot of what you are feeling when indulging in ABDL behavior, and you likely will be able to level with me as well. I plan to go get professional help, and to make a very real attempt at doing something about this.
Tonight I approached my wife with a diaper on. She has known for sometime about it. I told her, "Im sorry. I cant help it." She lovingly said that its ok. I knew she wasnt comfortable with it. She responded in the way someone who legitimately loves me would, did research in an attempt to find out more. She wanted to help me, so she went to professional resources. I do this, and even feel happy for a moment. But then i get to a point to where i hate myself, (not enough to inflict self harm of any kind but still...)
Should we really be embracing this? Please understand again that this isnt meant to offend. If you do plan to respond, please dont judge. Understand that i have been told 100 times over to embrace it. I feel like its close minded to assume that this is the only way.
Understand where my feelings are for everyone with ABDL feelings. I have a tremendous love for the people of this community, as we share the same struggle. You all likely have felt a self hate for yourself like i do now. Believe me when i have no intention or desire of any kind to offend. There just has to be a better way to be happy than this.