Hi, not too good at these things, but I'll try my best. You can call me Shard. I've been lurking around these boards for a while now, and I thought it was time I finally introduced myself. You cannot imagine how excited I was when I found forums and websites like this, and realised I wasn't the only one - well, actually you almost certainly can! I've always been a bit of an introvert (unless I'm surrounded by friends in a comfy environment, then I'm outright loud and crazy!) and a loner, who never really got "people" - VERY socially awkward. Also the youngest of three, so I was always the baby of the family. I've been an adult for a while, but still don't really feel like I am one, and frankly don't know if I ever will - the idea of having my own place, full time job, paying bills, etc, doesn't seem real to me. Doesn't help that I'm still coddled to this day, which is great, but not that helpful in teaching me to "adult". Is anyone else the same - torn between wanting to be coddled and have things done for them, and wanting to be made to look after themselves so that they can be more confident with being the adult they know they'll have to eventually be?
Between that and a childhood of bullying, all I've ever wanted is to be able do it all over - a second chance and an escape from the present. Like a lot of people here, I just absolutely crave to be taken care of. In the meantime, being seen as the "baby" of the family works out great for me - my bed is overflowing with stuffed toys and blankies (even Mum calls them that!), which I constantly add to, and no one cares. My winter PJ's are all awesome-sauce onesies, and my generation is kinda known for their love of their childhood books and tv shows, so I can indulge as much as I want without it being considered odd! And I have sites like this to explore and learn from, which is brilliant.
So, about myself. Big science nut, particularly wildlife biology - actually writing a research paper for a journal, in between melting at the photos of the cute animals I studied. Massive nerd AND geek (there is a difference!); I spend way too much time looking at Doctor Who gifs on Pinterest and reading impossible mysteries or playing puzzle games. I love anything that turns your entire perception of reality on its head, and forces you to look at things in a completely different way - partly because the expressions on other peoples faces end up being HILARIOUS. Also love a bit of gardening, baking (well, cake decorating mostly), gaming, and creating. Music is my life, performing - acting and singing - is my joy, and I like to spend months re-creating Broadway costumes and creating crazy props and decorations for massive themed costume parties. Oh, and don't get between me and my British classic comedy or panel shows - if you don't love Blackadder, or can't quote Big Fat Quiz to me, forget it.
I'm basically hoping to just explore this world a little more, maybe come out of my turtle-shell for a bit and join in with the rest of "my people", so to speak. I've been taking home made baby things and adapting them to my size, so it'll be fun to share once I've got those going a bit more - home made onesie, plus knitted frog and bumble bee booties! And maybe I'll pick up a few tips and tricks too. And maybe learn to ramble on a little less while I'm at it.
Between that and a childhood of bullying, all I've ever wanted is to be able do it all over - a second chance and an escape from the present. Like a lot of people here, I just absolutely crave to be taken care of. In the meantime, being seen as the "baby" of the family works out great for me - my bed is overflowing with stuffed toys and blankies (even Mum calls them that!), which I constantly add to, and no one cares. My winter PJ's are all awesome-sauce onesies, and my generation is kinda known for their love of their childhood books and tv shows, so I can indulge as much as I want without it being considered odd! And I have sites like this to explore and learn from, which is brilliant.
So, about myself. Big science nut, particularly wildlife biology - actually writing a research paper for a journal, in between melting at the photos of the cute animals I studied. Massive nerd AND geek (there is a difference!); I spend way too much time looking at Doctor Who gifs on Pinterest and reading impossible mysteries or playing puzzle games. I love anything that turns your entire perception of reality on its head, and forces you to look at things in a completely different way - partly because the expressions on other peoples faces end up being HILARIOUS. Also love a bit of gardening, baking (well, cake decorating mostly), gaming, and creating. Music is my life, performing - acting and singing - is my joy, and I like to spend months re-creating Broadway costumes and creating crazy props and decorations for massive themed costume parties. Oh, and don't get between me and my British classic comedy or panel shows - if you don't love Blackadder, or can't quote Big Fat Quiz to me, forget it.
I'm basically hoping to just explore this world a little more, maybe come out of my turtle-shell for a bit and join in with the rest of "my people", so to speak. I've been taking home made baby things and adapting them to my size, so it'll be fun to share once I've got those going a bit more - home made onesie, plus knitted frog and bumble bee booties! And maybe I'll pick up a few tips and tricks too. And maybe learn to ramble on a little less while I'm at it.