Advice

Ok here is a little background about me.

When i was around 6 i was held back in kindergarten as a result i was placed in the nursery which was on the third floor of the parish hall as a result there was a child gate blocking the stairs and one morning i had to use the bathroom and the teacher wouldn't open the gate because she was the only one watching the nursery so she couldn't take me so i ended up peeing my pants so as a result i was put into diapers for the day. That is when i found out i liked diapers.

Growing up i did not understand my desire to waer diapers and could not get them.

When i was 18 i still had a pediatrician and one day a grabbed the biggest baby diapers i could find in the exam room cabinet and at night when everyone was asleep i would use making tape to put on and use the diaper.

Then after i got a laptop from renta center and got on to wifi at home i started too do searches on adults who liked to wear diapers and also like baby stuff thats when i found out that i was AB. That was in the mid 2000's.

In 2009 my life was not going good emotionally and i had to repress my AB feelings because my family wouldn't have understood. Then in July off 2009 my life came crashing down on me and i was told i had Stage 3C Colorectal cancer and was treated. As a result i was left with bladder leakage. I wore adult pull ups until my family decided that i didn't need them and made me wear mens guard.

In 2011 after repressing my AB side and tenancies i had a break down during involuntary hospitalization i decided to allow myself my AB feelings. I got my life back on track. Got a degree in computers and got a job early in January 2017.

Then on March 31st i got a call from my oncologist saying my recent tests confirmed that my cancer was back and my mind collapsed. My AB side helped me stay stable and of sound mind.

Now my treatment plan includes 2 or more months of chemo, then 5 to 8 weeks of radiation therapy then surgery that may leave my with a urostomy which i am totally against i would rather be in diapers the rest of my life than deal with another ostomy.

On the day i go for cancer surgery i am leaving a protected document for my caretaker/PCA/ Healthcare proxy that will explain that i am AB and that is part of who i am should things go bad.

Any suggestions as to what to say

First I want to say how sorry I am that all these terrible things are happening to you. I think you have every right to make the decision as to whether you have an ostomy or can wear diapers as an alternative. This is your life and you're the one who has to live it. I hope the surgery and chemo works for you and is successful.

I'm not an attorney. I would recommend checking with an attorney to make sure your directive is legally binding.

With that said, I think that if you were to write out that you would prefer diapers and do not want an ostomy, that would be sufficient.

I don't think you need to tell anyone why you would prefer diapers, just that you do.