AvgGamerPup
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- Diaper Lover
Hello everyone! I am AvgGamerPup, a dude living in Australia, nice to be here!
There will be a bit of backstory to this, but I will try to keep it as brief as possible and categorise each thing I say to avoid textwalls
Backstory to my DL (yes I call them diapers even though I live in Aus)...Well, earliest memory I have is 3 or 4 year old me not getting to the toilet in time and peeing my diaper, prompty followed by being changed by my mother. Apparently I was tough to toilet train
Fast forward about 4 - 6 years...I remember seeing a pull-up in a bathroom cupboard and I decided to briefly try it on, then immediately take it back off. I didn't think much of it at the time. Also around that time, I remember reading the Goosebumps book 'The Cuckoo Clock of Doom', specifically the section where the lead character goes too far back in time and is a diapered little baby. Even at that age, I remember reading that section of the book gave me an erection (alongside watching the Sky High baby scene a few years later)...being too young to understand, I also brushed it aside.
Forward to 2010...15 year old me suddenly got the urge to try on a diaper, and seeing an old, adult one laying around the house (with no tabs), I held it up to my groin for a good minute, with a huge erection, being slightly satisfied yet so confused. Afterwards, I threw it away and convinced myself that I was a freak, trying to purge the thoughts away for over 6 years. During that time, the mere thought of diapers and wearing them would make me extremely uncomfortable and bring on a huge amount of self-loathe, and would often tarnish any event in which I thought of them. I briefly signed up to this forum in 2011 only to quickly abandon my account.
Present day...I discover Binkie Princess through a 9GAG post, and afterwards frequently find myself looking at ABDL girls on instagram. Through the next few months, and thanks to a few reddit posts, I realise that being a DL, just like any other kink, doesn't label me as a weirdo, and the only way I can stop thinking about it in a negative light is if I accept it as OK. Which I have done now, for the most part...the self loathing still happens from time to time but I feel like I am in a much better place right now.
Although since 2010, I have never tried on a diaper. I would (obviously) love to, but it is difficult right now, mainly because I live with my immediate family and I am not comfortable with anyone knowing. I know a large amount of people like to post their diapered selves on places like Instagram and that's cool, but it's something I wouldn't like to flaunt (just like any other sexual desires). There are little to no places to hide them, I'm not really comfortable heading out into a shop to buy some, and trying to throw any away that I may use would be a huge problem (only #1, #2 does not appeal to me whatsoever).
Lastly, in regards to what I do and do like in regards to ABDL...I like the idea of playing, rolling around and sleeping in diapers, although pacifiers and onesies are a bit on the iffy side. I wouldn't want to dedicate whole days to wearing them, and I have heard things about people screwing up their bladder patterns through frequent use, which I definitely don't want happening. I've seen some sample photo sets from ABDreams, basically softcore porn, and some of that stuff is so absurd...definitely not to my liking. Also, like I said before, I do plan on keeping this secret from the majority of people I know, and as I result I probably won't reveal much about myself on here. Any tips on trying to get into 'healthy' diaper usage would be appreciated!
Anyway, that's it! Sorry to bore you all with my textwall. I'll probably be asking a few questions in different sub-forums from time to time, I look forward to talking more there!
Enjoy your day/night everyone!
There will be a bit of backstory to this, but I will try to keep it as brief as possible and categorise each thing I say to avoid textwalls
Backstory to my DL (yes I call them diapers even though I live in Aus)...Well, earliest memory I have is 3 or 4 year old me not getting to the toilet in time and peeing my diaper, prompty followed by being changed by my mother. Apparently I was tough to toilet train
Fast forward about 4 - 6 years...I remember seeing a pull-up in a bathroom cupboard and I decided to briefly try it on, then immediately take it back off. I didn't think much of it at the time. Also around that time, I remember reading the Goosebumps book 'The Cuckoo Clock of Doom', specifically the section where the lead character goes too far back in time and is a diapered little baby. Even at that age, I remember reading that section of the book gave me an erection (alongside watching the Sky High baby scene a few years later)...being too young to understand, I also brushed it aside.
Forward to 2010...15 year old me suddenly got the urge to try on a diaper, and seeing an old, adult one laying around the house (with no tabs), I held it up to my groin for a good minute, with a huge erection, being slightly satisfied yet so confused. Afterwards, I threw it away and convinced myself that I was a freak, trying to purge the thoughts away for over 6 years. During that time, the mere thought of diapers and wearing them would make me extremely uncomfortable and bring on a huge amount of self-loathe, and would often tarnish any event in which I thought of them. I briefly signed up to this forum in 2011 only to quickly abandon my account.
Present day...I discover Binkie Princess through a 9GAG post, and afterwards frequently find myself looking at ABDL girls on instagram. Through the next few months, and thanks to a few reddit posts, I realise that being a DL, just like any other kink, doesn't label me as a weirdo, and the only way I can stop thinking about it in a negative light is if I accept it as OK. Which I have done now, for the most part...the self loathing still happens from time to time but I feel like I am in a much better place right now.
Although since 2010, I have never tried on a diaper. I would (obviously) love to, but it is difficult right now, mainly because I live with my immediate family and I am not comfortable with anyone knowing. I know a large amount of people like to post their diapered selves on places like Instagram and that's cool, but it's something I wouldn't like to flaunt (just like any other sexual desires). There are little to no places to hide them, I'm not really comfortable heading out into a shop to buy some, and trying to throw any away that I may use would be a huge problem (only #1, #2 does not appeal to me whatsoever).
Lastly, in regards to what I do and do like in regards to ABDL...I like the idea of playing, rolling around and sleeping in diapers, although pacifiers and onesies are a bit on the iffy side. I wouldn't want to dedicate whole days to wearing them, and I have heard things about people screwing up their bladder patterns through frequent use, which I definitely don't want happening. I've seen some sample photo sets from ABDreams, basically softcore porn, and some of that stuff is so absurd...definitely not to my liking. Also, like I said before, I do plan on keeping this secret from the majority of people I know, and as I result I probably won't reveal much about myself on here.
Any tips on trying to get into 'healthy' diaper usage would be appreciated!Anyway, that's it! Sorry to bore you all with my textwall. I'll probably be asking a few questions in different sub-forums from time to time, I look forward to talking more there!
Enjoy your day/night everyone!
