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Thread: Self Esteem - Has being ABDL affected your feelings about yourself?

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    Default Self Esteem - Has being ABDL affected your feelings about yourself?

    How many of us have had self esteem issues connected with our being ABDL?

    Perhaps you may first read the title and the initial question and say, "Duh!! Teddybear, what planet have you been living on?" Perhaps goes without saying that many of us who are ABDL have had issues with self esteem because of our being "different" than others?

    But I am placing this new thread in hopes that others who have struggled at times with self esteem associated with their interest in wearing diapers may share their feelings and the reasons for them...

    ...as well as those, who like myself, struggled for so many years with this and now see being ABDL as something not to be ashamed of, but rather something that bolsters my feeling of self worth even perhaps to boasting.

    To be brief, (not as in disposable brief) I will share that when I was growing up, I felt very negative towards myself because of my interests in wearing diapers. Sometimes to the point of despair.

    I went through the binge and purge cycle so many times I cannot even remember.

    But finally, as I matured and I realized not only that I was not alone in this interest, but that it was something that caused me to be more caring, kind, compassionate, and understanding of others, I realize that my interest in diapers and being little is not a curse, but rather a cherished blessing.

    I accept who I am and my little side that is so part of me. It makes me a better person and gives me perceptions on life that I would not have otherwise. Instead of being ashamed and feeling less than others, I am proud of my little interests and this part of me.

    Sure, I don't go out and flaunt this in front of others or am obvious in my diaper loving self.

    If you met me in real life you would not know I am wearing diapers and it is not readily apparent that I have this interest. The reason for this is not because I am ashamed of wearing diapers or so drastically trying to hide that I wear them. But rather, I recognize that others who are not ABDL are not likely to understand. I respect their views and understand how being outwardly ABDL could adversely affect my career as well as valued relationships with those who simply don't understand ABDLism.

    My point is that I truly feel happy with who I am and instead of being ashamed (as I used to be) about being ABDL, it actually makes me feel a bit higher than most as I can see and experience things that others may never know.

    There is value in being childlike that the world has forgotten.

    My hope is that all those who might be struggling with feelings of insecurity and poor self esteem because of being ABDL might truly be able to see just how these things set themselves apart from others and make them special, unique and not "abnormal", but "way above the norm".

    I truly would like for others to share their thoughts on this.

    There is so much heartache that I went through when I was younger that if someone had shared with me what I now know, I believe would have made a huge difference in my life. I am hopeful that others may also share the things they have experienced that it may be of benefit to all.

    Please share your thoughts.


    Teddy Bear Cowboy

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    Hi Teddy! Good question. I've also went through the binge/purge cycle and I can say with 100% confidence that accepting my DL side has truly elevated my self-esteem and sense of compassion for others. I mean to wholly embrace who you are is probably one of the greatest gifts a person can give one's self.

    Now I don't openly tell everyone I meet about my ABDL side but honestly I don't put much effort into hiding it either. I mean I'll wear in public but as far as using them in public that really isn't my thing though.

    So now I'm 33 years old and I wish I could have accepted myself sooner but right now I feel a sense of freedom and I'm in the process of doing a little life rebuilding and I hope in the future that we as a group of unique individuals will be accepted. I've always loved the Oscar Wilde quote that goes to the tune of “be yourself as everyone else is taken.” Sorry that's not an exact quote but nevertheless I feel it's a powerful observation cloaked in a simplistic veneer.

    Cheers!

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    Interestingly enough, I've never felt ashamed of being a DL. I actually feel proud that it's challenged and widened my perspective on others' (and my own) lifestyle.

    Nonetheless, I plan to keep it secret from my family and the general public. People don't wave meat in my face, so I won't be waving my 'unusual' interest in theirs.

    Hopefully, I continue keep this mentality and avoid the dreaded binge and purge when the time comes to get my first diapers.

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    Yes, for me it's a bit of an odd case. The interest has always been there but it wasn't something I actually took part of. However, I am a bed wetter and have been as far back as I can remember. This obviously had caused quite a bit of problems itself. Especially since my family wasn't the type where I could rely on them for help even as a kid. It wasn't till I hit puberty where I began finding myself wanting to do these things more on purpose then I ever had before. To the point of losing control over it, almost like an addiction of sorts.

    This did become one of the factors why I wanted to commit suicide. Even more so when my family found out and was constantly getting kicked out an tossed around for bed wetting or some other reason like being transgender.

    Anyway, somewhere along the line I did come to accept it. I think it was the last time my Mom kicked me out because her husband found diapers I had stashed away. I think this was also the point I realized I wasn't so much the problem, it was my family that had been the problem. They where about to throw them away as they where kicking me out and I said "NO, you are not throwing those away. I got them with my own money. Don't touch them, I am taking them with me" .. there probably was some curse words in there rofl. It was the first time though I stood up for myself especially toward my Mom and actually admitted straight out that this was something I liked. Ever since I just have sort of accepted this as part of who I am.

    Now, I wouldn't want to give it up.

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    It weighed on me heavily in my teens and early 20s. I kept it secret but it was always there, waiting to embarrass me with a diaper commercial or an innocent comment. Eventually, I started to see the light but it was a lengthy process. I feel like now, if anything, it's positive to my self-esteem. I still keep it private and discreet but I've got enough ABDL culture around me that it feels like a good thing. I also value the time I've spent meeting people online and I hope I have been able to help as I have been helped.

    I think this is like a lot of fringe interests one might have. We learn growing up that some of the things we like aren't broadly popular. Either we give them up or find ways to integrate those interests into our lives in positive ways. Part of it is probably just getting older and more comfortable in your skin (or being lucky enough to understand it from the outset). I try to maximize the benefits of my unusual likes and it has made my life richer and more interesting.

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    Before the creation and streamlining of the internet I'm sure many ABDLs thought they were completely alone in their desires. I was no exception. There are times where I wish I didn't have this particular side of me and I've always had low self-esteem even to this day, though its not nearly as bad as it was when I was younger. I still have to indulge in my ABDL side in private for obvious reasons but that is okay. Being ABDL is far better than some of the things other people indulge in like drugs and crime to help them cope with life's struggles. I suppose as long as I keep reminding myself of that, then I can be more accepting of myself. Everyone I know, even non-ABDL friends could care less and most of them know.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Pawlf View Post
    Before the creation and streamlining of the internet I'm sure many ABDLs thought they were completely alone in their desires. I was no exception. There are times where I wish I didn't have this particular side of me and I've always had low self-esteem even to this day, though its not nearly as bad as it was when I was younger. I still have to indulge in my ABDL side in private for obvious reasons but that is okay. Being ABDL is far better than some of the things other people indulge in like drugs and crime to help them cope with life's struggles. I suppose as long as I keep reminding myself of that, then I can be more accepting of myself. Everyone I know, even non-ABDL friends could care less and most of them know.
    Before the Internet, I saw a few talk shows with ABDLs. Knowing i wasn't alone didn't really help in that case because I felt alienated from their attitudes and willingness to prostitute themselves for attention. I understand it a little better now but at the time, being the only one felt like it would be better.

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    I felt what I suspect was a pretty average amount of self-pity and loneliness with respect to my diaper-wearing, particularly during my teens when it emerged as a sexual thing. But I wouldn't say it had much of an impact on my overall self-esteem, no. I was a pretty busy-minded kid with what always seemed to be an excess of competing hobbies and interests, and also had a small but stable group of friends, some of whom I've been in continuous contact with since I was seven years old. And there was also the fact that I had easy access to diapers throughout my childhood, which I suspect is why the binges and purges others wrestled with never really hit me. The few spans of diaperlessness I did experience were due largely to external factors, such as my being distracted with school, girlfriends, and other life changes. I also don't think I have a depressive personality, which might be another key factor. But no way to be sure.

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    When I was a teenager, I thought I must be crazy to be so obsessed with bed wetting and diapers. As an older member, there was no internet or social media, so I felt isolated from being able to talk about it with anyone. I had a couple friends who either intimated at it, or got caught by a parent, but that didn't really help.

    To make matters worse, I was also beginning to realize that I was attracted to some of my male classmates or other boys in the neighborhood, something that was even more taboo because that did get talked about. This all came to an ugly head when my mom discovered my gay porn and diapers, etc. She sent me to see a psychiatrist which made me feel all the more crazy.

    The smartest thing I did was after graduating from college, I moved away and started my life as an adult. It took many years before I accepted this side of my personality, but it eventually happened. My wife has been very understanding and that has helped as well as being on this site.

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    I have low self esteem in general, and while ABDL and diapers isn't the only thing that is responsible for it, back when you're a teenager, and thinking the only others with desires like you are the people on Jerry Springer with no shame, it becomes a big pillar of shame and low self esteem, especially when you already had low self esteem to begin with.

    Eventually, my low self esteem about ABDL began to be chipped away at over the years, and once I met others like me in person, it died for good, and with the ABDL pillar of shame gone, that definitely reduced my low self esteem. I do still admit that my self esteem isn still on the lower end, but if you compare it now to how it was back in my teenage years, it's significantly higher.

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