I started watching straight porn pretty young and always have been very interested in my sexual appetites. It started around 2 years ago when I began exploring other things online rather than straight porn. This lead me to discover I liked bisexual porn, which then over time evolved into cuckolding. The idea of cuckolding was a game changer for me. I didn't know when I began that I was diving into a deep world of fucked up things. I created a tumblr account and was amazed at all of the different kinds of cuckold porn there was. I began discovering sissy blogs and I remember initially thinking how fucked up this is. Here am I a year later and I am truly starting to question who I am. I don't know whether those sissy hypno videos work but I feel very different about my sexuality as of recent. Up until this past year I've always believe I've been a straight male. I'm 21 years old and still in college. I've had plenty of girlfriends and what not. I do not understand why, but the idea of being a sissy girl is so incredibly arousing. I have never worn lingerie or acted on any of my fantasies, but I feel like I am very close. I want to so bad. I want to dress up and be a cute sissy girl. I originally loved to fantasize about being humiliated by women, but now I fantasize about emasculated and dominated by a male. I love BDSM and most definitely a submissive beta male. I love the idea of being locked in chastity, and which I was so I would never have an orgasm and get mad at myself after. Why is this fetish so incredibly appealing? I've never been more sexually aroused than I am when I'm watching sissy hypno and/or fantasizing about dressing up and letting real men fuck me. I want it so bad I feel like I need to act on my fantasies immediately. I'm having a hard time processing this and don't know how to deal with it. I'm scared and confused. I've lived my life as a straight male all my life, and now in the back of my mind I'm deeply fantasizing about being a girl. I've been angry with myself and have tried to repress it, which has caused multiple problems elsewhere in life. Is it okay for me accept being a sissy and embrace all of my fantasies? I don't know how this works. Did any of you have a similar experience? Any advice, comments or questions are greatly appreciated. ::smile: