It gets easier each day. At this point in my life, I feel none.
When you're young, you have many different priorities than we do as older ABDL. It takes awhile for the guilt to be realized for what it is, and to let go of it. The quickest way I can make a point is to tell you to look at all of the people you have known in your entire life. Any of them into whips & chains? Pee games? Foot fetishism? Hanging by their skin? Little kids??? If you get the point, the truth is, these type of people exist in all forms, in all places, and you just don't know it. If you can take from that the concept that what people do in private REALLY IS their own thing, as long as no one is being hurt, including yourself. Diapers, doms, gaydom & lesbianism, panty fetishes, and all the rest, are all part of being human. No, you probably didn't say to yourself, I think I'll be an ABDL, but YOU KNOW, if that's what you are, it's not a death sentence. It just means you'll learn how to cope with this strange proclivity, the way others do, in private, as much as possible, and in public, in a way that brings no harm/foul to others, including bystanders, who may be children whose way of life hasn't quite been formed up, and who may no understand your adult choices. SO, keeping it to yourself, and to the other important person/people in your life, is all you're required to do. Wearing diapers is not a sin. It's not illegal. It does cross some social boundaries (as do tats), but society has nothing to say about your personal choices, lest they be hypocrites. A partner might choke on the desires, but many of them have desires of their own, vanilla or otherwise, and it's your job not to choke on their choices, if it doesn't destroy the relationship. Many would say diapers have already destroyed their relationship, but, maybe, not sharing the pertinent information, at the pertinent time, with the one they chose to spend their life with is what destroyed their future with their partner.