Lately since I feel forced to be an adult at times that when I get back home I remain in my depressed adult like state. I often don't feel like playing and in turn it pushes me into the spiral further, Alternativly this happens when I am in little space and I need to adult up for college.

What's going on here? How can I be able to get into each head space easier?

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I don't feel loved or even liked at all and it's becoming a headache to convince myself I am likeable.