KryanAshford
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Seems I haven't completely accepted myself for who I am. Part of this I can only guess it's because think so highly of myself. Most thing that could be considered a weakness is usually ignored or cut out. My abdl side is a baby, but I've never really allowed it to have time to play. I haven't purged in years, but I just have a hard time seeing myself as a baby. Even as actual baby, I was lone and mostly on my own. My mom told me, she had to leave me alone or my dad would try to hurt me. She would often show me affection when he wasn't around, but at some point I lost my ability to really feel. It's like being nerve dead in your heart. After so long of emptiness, every time I try to let my heart beat again for someone or something. It only hurts extremely bad. I only have feelings for maybe two people. One of course is my mom and the other this my imaginary friend. I KNOW she isn't real and I know she could never be real. But she helps get me through day. At one point I was much worse. I wanted to see everything and everyone burn, but things feel manageable with her around to support me. I just needed unconditional love for a change.