NewandConfused - First of all, there is no reason to be confused here. The forums are open to all and unless you are trolling you will find that most here are supportive and more than genuinely wanting to help others as well as become informed themselves.
The question you have posed about messing in a diaper is not something that is uncommon among the ABDL community. But even among those who are ABDL, there is still a difference in acceptance or stigma associated with it. For most all of us, we have been taught from the moment we were old enough to understand that we should be big boys or girls and go potty in the potty.
:detective3 As a parent myself, I understand the reasons why. It is much more work to change diapers than for a child to go the big boys and girls potty. Society too has placed a view on poop in general as being nasty and to be avoided. (and because of germs and disease that can be transmitted through unsanitary conditions, this is not an unfounded rationale).
But for those who either are DL or AB or ABDL, etc., one of the most common interests is the association with a diaper as it the iconic image of a baby. And arguably perhaps even more so the act of using the diaper is even more babylike. So it goes to reason that wanting to experience wetting and messing a diaper is not inherently abnormal among the ABDL community.
And even if it were so, it still is okay to be different!!!:hug:
As far as whether or not to use suppositories... First of all, unless you have an abnormal medical condition, the occasional use of a suppository or enema is not going to cause physical harm. The purpose for these medications is to assist individuals who may have constipation or other problems to more easily perform the function of voiding through bowel functions. They act as stimuli that cause the body to actively react and have a bowel movement. As noted on the product label, they are not meant for regular use.
Do they work? Well, yes.
Can they be painful? Well, yes.
If you have ever experienced having something that irritates your bowels and causing diarrhea, that is kind of what these products synthetically do. They irritate the colon and intestines in a similar fashion, causing one to have the need to have a movement. Which can be somewhat painful because of the strong sensations it creates for this to happen.
:educate: For someone who is wanting to have an experience of feeling a loss of control, it may (or may not) actually cause you not lose some control, but rather experience the sensation of really needing to go so much it could even hurt.:sad:
Just as you should not abuse any medication or drug, these are items that should be used as directed. Don't fool around with any drug... Period.
But on another note, you shared that you were also having issues with trying to mess because of your familial state and circumstance. -- As a father myself, I am going to share a few thoughts. This is not something that you should engage in around others. :soapbox:
If your wife accepts it and is okay with it, then there is no harm in exploring your littlest of sides and all it encompasses while in her presence. However, as far as the children, I have always taken the stance that this is something very private and is not something to be doing when they are around. Maybe some others will disagree, but I personally feel that this is something that is not appropriate to be exploring around children, period. End of story. Full stop...
If you want to explore what it feels like to poop your diaper, find a time and place where it isn't going to be noticed by others. Not only your family, but certainly others. Our unique interest of wearing diapers and for those that do, also using them, is not something that is understood by others. As such, we should be respectful of others. Just as when I am working cows and sometimes gets covered in green substance I don't want to be offensive to others by going into public places, the same holds true with similar situations associated with ABDL.
I hope this may help you as you explore more of who you are and the interests you may have :detective3
