Aby

I wanted to shoot out to all of you a huge thank you, I have been terribly lonely lately and I needed friends like you folks. Lots of love.

Woke up and was surprised I was wet when I rolled over and felt the thickness of my diaper between my legs, I love genuine surprises like a wet diaper when I wake up, makes me feel so little.

I told a girl I have had a long time crush on my "little" secret, not expecting too get in a real relationship or anything, just acceptance from someone I had a genuine crush on, something I hadn't felt in many years. She was very understanding of some of the stuff I kinda hinted at like I like to be "little". Today I told all in a text message. Waiting for her to read it all and her response.

Getting real tired of people getting mad at me on sites like facebook and then deciding to remain "friends" not tell me why they are upset at me, and refusing to ever talk to me again, they don't block me or unfriend me, they just act like I am dead. Makes it hard to ever get close to people.

I was tempted to tell a friend suffering from insomnia how I figured out the fix that lets me sleep like a baby, decided that the joke is a bit too much.

one of my doggies chewed up my paci, not sure if I have to go to the store to get another one or if I can wait for the big one I order to come, it really helps me get to sleep fast.

Woke up dry yesterday, but wet this morning. Didn't have any wet mornings till I decided I had to go back in diapers again, so I think this is totally mental conditioning and will power, with possibly a twist of little me dreaming.

Woke up two days in a row now with a wet diaper, I am starting to think that when I sleep and get into a dream state that it is often "little Me" at the wheel. All it took was letting little me out of the hole I buried him in.

Ever realize a day or so too late that your old pants have hole in the rear end, that show your underwear? Yeah... I was wearing plastic pants which could at least be mistaken for very boyish underwear or boxers, and not a naked diaper. One person did give me an odd smile...

mistakes made after a long break.

I did that creeperish thing where I look at other's profile after they post on a thread I post on and have to ask. OMG please tell me hell is all I hoped it would be when I get there! LOL

New profile pic, I have struggled to fine the perfect pic of me that wouldn't be to revealing of my adult identity. This was in 2008 on Halloween. I actually went that far as to wear a self customized adult diaper and Huggies t-shirt to a party. I even went to the grocery store dressed like that to buy wipes, powder and beer. Didn't get any negative comments but was followed around the store by a few people.

I've made it from moderated to Est. Contributor, I feel like a bog boy, but I ain't!

Aby, There's more to all of this than what meets the eye... I hope you'll see this as a positive learning experience and not resort to going down in flames... You've got to give yourself, and this life... a better chance... this is the only life to concern yourself with now. You can't actually say that you've done everything you could/can, when you haven't lived the entirety of this life... I don't think it's like missing a bus... to hell with this one, I'll catch the next... you've got to ride this one 'till the wheels fall off... I believe that I understand some of your anguish... and I believe that you have much more to see now... it's bigger than you alone... and you are not alone... even if lonely today!

Much regards,
-Marka

I don't know what to do or say actually. I wish I could help.

no worries I had a melt down a few nights ago and said some stuff in anger, its all good now.

What happened that made you banned?