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Slightly Regressing in public
"How far would be too far?"
Obviously I know some extremes I would never do, but a lot of us differ on this.
Back Story
Let me start with a story or two just so we are on the same page. I am autistic AS with OCD. I was diagnosed with OCD at a young age because it focussed on obsessive thoughts. Even today I struggle sometimes with obsessing over possible scenerios and overthinking how I would react to them.
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Some might remember when I attempted electrical school. One day during that time my class mates were talking about a fellow student who would have panic attacks. Even making fun of her because of their unbelief. This enraged me because I suffer from OCD. Rest assured I quit that school because the office wouldn't do anything to help me except talk to the one who taught it. Every time nothing changed.
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Previous discussion
I mentioned this once before, but I would like a little more input on it. That and an update on how its going. My reasons are strictly to make it more visible for my disability. As in not to the point of causing more problems then my disability already does. At least this is manageable as opposed to being loud and obnoxious without knowing it until its too late. Not to mention my mouth bleeding when I clamp my jaw shut from anxiety.
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Keep in mind this really is when things get extreme. If I had my meds I handle it reasonably and then I clamp my jaw sometimes. Initially I started with my pacifier. I would have a pacifier or a plushy, but not both. For you nerds out there, "XOR gate to land of a calm mind."
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If I have a writing utensil or other item in my mouth I will bleed a little from scratches my anxious teeth clenching does sometimes. Nothing more then a paper cut, but its not pleasant. The rude looks I get for my pacifier are ten times easier to deal with.
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Recent results
I got to where I walked on the neighborhood side walks while using my pacifier. This helped me face my fears and decreased my over all anxiety tremendously. On occasion I carry a plushy pencil/pen bag for my minimum of art sketching utensils. I am trying to freewrite and sketch everyday to keep up with practice. Makes a nice excuse to have a plushy.
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The only negative I noticed is one time a car spooked me. One slowed down and got really close to the curb. I think they just really wanted to know if it was an actual pacifier. After seeing me jump I think they realized this was "stalking," and I never had problems after that. However, its been a little less frequent that I had a chance to go for a walk with my pacifier. I been keeping it in a translucent cradle to prevent myself from losing ground and I end up overthinking this again.
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My thoughts on this
I been thinking about slightly age regressing in public for when ever its my own time. Doing very subtle hints only to calm my own mind and or to get out of my house even though my anxiety is not too good. I obviously don't do this at work, but my usual strategies can be very taxing. I sure don't want this for my off days.
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People think I am a kinkster big deal! At least I can see who are friendly to autistics and those who are not. The physical reactions makes this ten times easier to see both them and me. My disability would be visible.
"How far would be too far?"
Obviously I know some extremes I would never do, but a lot of us differ on this.
Back Story
Let me start with a story or two just so we are on the same page. I am autistic AS with OCD. I was diagnosed with OCD at a young age because it focussed on obsessive thoughts. Even today I struggle sometimes with obsessing over possible scenerios and overthinking how I would react to them.
.
Some might remember when I attempted electrical school. One day during that time my class mates were talking about a fellow student who would have panic attacks. Even making fun of her because of their unbelief. This enraged me because I suffer from OCD. Rest assured I quit that school because the office wouldn't do anything to help me except talk to the one who taught it. Every time nothing changed.
.
Previous discussion
I mentioned this once before, but I would like a little more input on it. That and an update on how its going. My reasons are strictly to make it more visible for my disability. As in not to the point of causing more problems then my disability already does. At least this is manageable as opposed to being loud and obnoxious without knowing it until its too late. Not to mention my mouth bleeding when I clamp my jaw shut from anxiety.
.
Keep in mind this really is when things get extreme. If I had my meds I handle it reasonably and then I clamp my jaw sometimes. Initially I started with my pacifier. I would have a pacifier or a plushy, but not both. For you nerds out there, "XOR gate to land of a calm mind."
.
If I have a writing utensil or other item in my mouth I will bleed a little from scratches my anxious teeth clenching does sometimes. Nothing more then a paper cut, but its not pleasant. The rude looks I get for my pacifier are ten times easier to deal with.
.
Recent results
I got to where I walked on the neighborhood side walks while using my pacifier. This helped me face my fears and decreased my over all anxiety tremendously. On occasion I carry a plushy pencil/pen bag for my minimum of art sketching utensils. I am trying to freewrite and sketch everyday to keep up with practice. Makes a nice excuse to have a plushy.
.
The only negative I noticed is one time a car spooked me. One slowed down and got really close to the curb. I think they just really wanted to know if it was an actual pacifier. After seeing me jump I think they realized this was "stalking," and I never had problems after that. However, its been a little less frequent that I had a chance to go for a walk with my pacifier. I been keeping it in a translucent cradle to prevent myself from losing ground and I end up overthinking this again.
.
My thoughts on this
I been thinking about slightly age regressing in public for when ever its my own time. Doing very subtle hints only to calm my own mind and or to get out of my house even though my anxiety is not too good. I obviously don't do this at work, but my usual strategies can be very taxing. I sure don't want this for my off days.
.
People think I am a kinkster big deal! At least I can see who are friendly to autistics and those who are not. The physical reactions makes this ten times easier to see both them and me. My disability would be visible.
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