It's been a long journey of self-discovery finding out about myself and accepting who I am.
for a long time, I tried to live up to other people's expectations of me "to be Normal." This led to me having mental breakdowns with depression and anxiety, through talking to a psychotherapist I found out that I have a kind of Peter Pan syndrome. They help me become more in touch with my inner child.
As I understand it, my inner child is a semi-independent subpersonality subordinate to the waking conscious mind, which is psychotherapy talk for being childlike.
Now I spend time where I let my inner child come out to play or regress into Little space; for me, this is like a meditation where I become innocent and childlike.
My friends know that I can be playful, and I enjoy being who I really am around them. Depending on the situation they will also treat me like a child explaining thing to me as if I was a toddler or a young child, knowing that I am not normal and no one else is either.
I have also developed an overactive bladder which means diapers now, am I find them much easier to use then keep rushing to the toilet.