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Therapy is as useless as I figured it would be. At least the one I'm seeing. I'm canceling all the appointments. Depression is back and is as strong as ever. The fucking problem is the stupid source of why my brain is fucked up. But the therapist instead of helping deal with any of it just...

I had a really weird dream. In the dream I was certain I was wearing undies with a cute childish design. For some reason I was meeting with someone in what I think was like therapy or whatever. She said we will have the therapy in a room that had windows all over and inside it look like a kids...

Bubu

what is caregiver's depression? Never heard of that.

is actually a term that from what I've seen changes from person to person. What Janvier said is part of it. For others is much more complicated.

what you said. How you say it.

that was really cute...

I did went today to the therapist. It was okay. I got a little of frustration out. It wasn't a mindblowing thing but I feel it can help overtime. At least I understand is not something that's just going to work right away. Also I have every Wendsday with the therapist from now on.

I think I now know the cause of why I'm so broken. Is the one reason I always ignore until I forget about it. My mom. She is the problem. Since I was a kid she always gives this impression of being a positive good person. In truth she is a pesimist without being aware of it. Since I can remember...

I'm so excited! I just finally let myself relax for a little bit and just play with some toys I bought recently. I could just sit and start playing without fear of judgment. I have a niece and nephew who are little and they have bunch of toys. When they want to play I try to play along while...

Yesterday after reading about hope I realized that's been a problem for me for a long time. By beliving too much in it I just do nothing about anything waiting for hope to just hand stuff to me. So I decided to learn to abandon all hope entirely. I know not all hope will be vanish but as long as...

Have any of you actually considerate I'm a masochist and this pain and loneliness are somehow what I want. Be it either because of shame or something totally mess up in my head. Also hope is the worst thing that anyone can tell me. It just makes me more mad, sad, depress. I mean, I keep coming...

Talking with someone I realized how much more hurtful the whole abdl thing is for me. These are the reasons. It makes me feel ashamed of myself. It makes me feel I don't belong anywhere. Not with the "normal" people nor within the abdl community. It gives me a secret I have to hide from everyone...

I hate alcohol. I hate social events, they make me anxious. And you got it. The part you say. Someone takes charge like if am a little kid. And yes. Wish it was that easy. I'm an idiot after all. I don't know how to deal with any of this. Plus the constant in fighting inside me is getting worse...

I want to be positive. I just can't. I'm so not use to that. I want things to be different. In a regular day when not depress, as long as I don't get into the subjects that make me feel hopeless I'm just fine. Is usually when depression comes that ruins everything. I want to be able to met...