I tried , many times in fact , too many times to count , ended up binge and purging and it was mental torture at the time for me . I regretted throwing many stuff away and its always the same , i felt disgusted after i wear and did stuff . I learn to accept myself gradually and i told myself NEVER purge , im doing no harm to anyone and its none of anyone's business what i do and that i am much happier and felt myself when i finally accepted myself for being a DL .
I tried to keep diapers away from me before , turning away ads on tv when they come on , walking away from diaper aisle at the mall , totally switching off away from any and all diaper content , it didn't end well , i was suffering .
Now i wear whenever i want to and whenever i feel the need to and i am of course much happier.