iam32bit
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For the past few years I have been dealing with OAB / UI. Some days are worse than others, with more than 20 trips to the bathroom being a bad day. I went to a doctor who mentioned that I am on a high dose diuretic and that was the cause of my bladder issues. He said "Either you stop your medication, or start wearing diapers".
I have been wearing diapers off and on in an effort to manage my bladder issues. While diapers do help, I have been battling feelings of embarrassment and also feeling like I am doing something wrong. I have posted in the past on this forum, you guys have been trying to help me to accept my need for diapers.
I think I finally understand why I am so against wearing them. Back when I was little, I was forced into a diaper by my baby sitter. I remember telling her "I am not supposed to wear these" I had just been potty trained but my baby sitter still thought I needed them. I think this trauma is why I am at war with wearing diapers.
Also being a 28 year old female doesn't help. I can't wear my skirts without fear of people seeing my diapers. I hate jeans, I hate pants. I am more of a dress / skirt kind of girl. Having to wear diapers to mange my IC forces me to change my wardrobe.
In my day to day, when I don't wear diapers, I wished I did since I have to run to the bathroom at the most inconvenient times. When I am on a call with someone I have to excuse myself and put them on hold. When I am in a meeting I have to miss important details to run to the bathroom. When I am commuting to and from work, I have to do my best to hold it as there are no bathrooms for a good 1 and a half hours. In the middle of the night I wake up a few times to run to the bathroom.
I really try my best to live day to day without the help of diapers. While they do work very well reducing my trips to 3 or 4 times a day. I am not sure I will ever accept them in my life. I kinda wish I was a DL as it would probably make my life easier.
I have a new doctor with a new practice. I never told them about my bladder issues as they have a system that shares my conditions with everyone. If I were to go to the hospital they would see that I have IC and would most likely put me in a diaper. Going back to the trauma, the idea of having someone change me freaks me out. It also doesn't help that I have been in the hospital 3 times this year for other issues.
Last week I finally told my doctor about my IC and mentioned how diapers do help managing my condition however I wanted to explore other options and see if there is another way I don't have to wear them. I have a bunch of tests coming up and hope things work out.
If anyone is interested, I wear North Shore Supreme (Plastic Backed). I love how comfortable they are, but hate how I can hear the plastic crinkling. I tried the cloth ones and hated how they would feel damp on the outside. They also tended to leak and not contain the smell.
Any advice or words of wisdom would be appreciated.
I have been wearing diapers off and on in an effort to manage my bladder issues. While diapers do help, I have been battling feelings of embarrassment and also feeling like I am doing something wrong. I have posted in the past on this forum, you guys have been trying to help me to accept my need for diapers.
I think I finally understand why I am so against wearing them. Back when I was little, I was forced into a diaper by my baby sitter. I remember telling her "I am not supposed to wear these" I had just been potty trained but my baby sitter still thought I needed them. I think this trauma is why I am at war with wearing diapers.
Also being a 28 year old female doesn't help. I can't wear my skirts without fear of people seeing my diapers. I hate jeans, I hate pants. I am more of a dress / skirt kind of girl. Having to wear diapers to mange my IC forces me to change my wardrobe.
In my day to day, when I don't wear diapers, I wished I did since I have to run to the bathroom at the most inconvenient times. When I am on a call with someone I have to excuse myself and put them on hold. When I am in a meeting I have to miss important details to run to the bathroom. When I am commuting to and from work, I have to do my best to hold it as there are no bathrooms for a good 1 and a half hours. In the middle of the night I wake up a few times to run to the bathroom.
I really try my best to live day to day without the help of diapers. While they do work very well reducing my trips to 3 or 4 times a day. I am not sure I will ever accept them in my life. I kinda wish I was a DL as it would probably make my life easier.
I have a new doctor with a new practice. I never told them about my bladder issues as they have a system that shares my conditions with everyone. If I were to go to the hospital they would see that I have IC and would most likely put me in a diaper. Going back to the trauma, the idea of having someone change me freaks me out. It also doesn't help that I have been in the hospital 3 times this year for other issues.
Last week I finally told my doctor about my IC and mentioned how diapers do help managing my condition however I wanted to explore other options and see if there is another way I don't have to wear them. I have a bunch of tests coming up and hope things work out.
If anyone is interested, I wear North Shore Supreme (Plastic Backed). I love how comfortable they are, but hate how I can hear the plastic crinkling. I tried the cloth ones and hated how they would feel damp on the outside. They also tended to leak and not contain the smell.
Any advice or words of wisdom would be appreciated.