Binge/purge cycle

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The binge/purge cycle is a term within the greater ABDL community that is used to describe oscillating feelings that some community members get toward diapers or baby paraphernalia.

How It Is Defined

As the name the suggests, there are two extremes of the spectrum.

Binge

Someone who is on a "binge" overindulges in their desires, including but not limited using the fetish object(s) much more frequently than normal. Strong feelings or a sense of "greater connection" to these items are present and the person is compelled to act on them.

Purge

Someone who is on a "purge" rejects or loses most, if not all interest in the fetish-driven object(s). In such a case, the person may simply not use that object for a while - or the duration of the purge - to more extreme cases where the person gets rid of all the objects relating to the fetish.

Understanding the Cycle

The following diagram demonstrates the binge/purge cycle:

At first, one overdoes it and then after a while suddenly rejects everything. Then, things go well for a while and one begins to binge again. One can enter the cycle at any point. The cycle is most problematic during the purge phase, when one may dispose of diapers, files, or other important paraphernalia, only to later regret it. Additionally, the purge cycle can destroy friendships when one friend begins to loathe the ABDL objects and the culture that are common to them.

Not all ABDL's go through the binge/purge cycle, and those that do may not go through it all the time. At the core of the cycle is usually a disharmony between the ABDL desires that one has and the cultural and familial expectations one is under. One may feel a sense of shame over ABDL tendencies, feeling that wearing diapers and acting like a child are culturally unacceptable, perverse, or are otherwise disgraceful. One may feel that family and friends would not accept one if they knew about these tendencies. On the other hand, these desires remain and appear immutable.

Thus, the suffer of the cycle may at times try to "muscle through" this disharmony by indulging, or he may simply feel free from those social constraints for a while. Whatever the reason, the sufferer enters the binge cycle by overindulging in ABDL desires. However, this overindulgence can quickly exhaust those desires, leaving the sufferer worn out. At this point, a sense of guilt may set in, and the disharmony between desire and expectation arises anew. Hence, the sufferer transitions into a possibly violent purging phrase, in which ABDL paraphernalia are not simply ignored, but destroyed. This often proceeds on the pretense that "this is it," that after this point one will not turn back to those ABDL desires.

While the jury is still out on whether or not it is actually possible to abandon ABDLism, most would argue that it is either impossible or extremely difficult. Many will argue that seeking a sense of wholeness in spite of these abnormal desires is preferable to trying to suppress and eliminate them. One should try to resolve the conflict that ABDL desires arouse and find a sense of unity in life, being at peace with those desires. At any rate, as nearly all ABDL's will attest, the purgative mindset of "this is the last time I'll ever wear a diaper" is infrequently a reality for more than a short while, and so at the end of it, one regrets having disposed of all one's ABDL related things.

How To Prevent It

To attack the root of the binge/purge cycle, one must ultimately come to terms with the reality of ABDL desires in one's life, find peace in having these desires, and eliminate all guilt and shame that one may feel. This is not a quick fix, but a long-term journey of coming to accept oneself and find acceptance in one's community. At its best, one may still go through periods of great indulgence and great apathy, but so long as this is not negative and destructive (like the binge/purge cycle can be) it is not really a problem. The intensity of one's ABDL's desires will naturally wax and wane, and a healthy lifestyle involves moderation of indulgence during periods of intense desire and internal peace when one is not so infatuated with ABDLism.

In the mean time, suffers of the binge/purge cycle should strive to keep everything in control and stay away from the extremes. Don't suddenly go and buy all kinds of stuff but at the same time don't throw away everything you have. Keep it all slow paced and under control. You will most likely regret throwing your collection away when you're going through the cycles, so even if it isn't what you want, heed the advice of others and save your things.

External Links

The ABDL Binge/Purge Cycle at Understanding Infantilism