I have been an abdl my entire life, growing up I didn't know of the term because I am 61, i just knew I was different, and of course , hid these desires. Obviously I love to wear diapers, but the adult baby side is sexual for me also, the bottles, high chair , playpen , paci, spanking, and I was wondering if I was alone or if there are others that feel this way? I don't engage in adult sexual relations in this mindset , just a adult nuring relationship. But I read where the DL side is sexual, but the AB side is not, but they both are for me.