RompingBulbasaur
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So recently I've been wanting to tell my closest friend about this side of me. We've grown up together, and gone to school together from when we were both toddlers, all the way through to even attending the same college, and now we're joining the same fraternity. So with all our history, and with the upcoming events we are gonna share as well, I didn't want to have this big secret kept from him anymore, so Monday night I called and arranged for him to come over after roller skating with some friends so we could have a "kinda serious and awkward talk". I probably shouldn't have called it that over the phone but I was nervous and it kinda just came out that way. I told him not to worry, and I'd explain the following night.
So fast forward to post-roller skating, and he actually asked if I could drive him between our apartments, to which I said yes, but it made me really nervous to think that should this conversation not go well, I'm now facing a VERY awkward drive to drop him back at his place.
To be honest, that was the first time I had been nervous all day. I'd read the posts on here about "coming out", thought of what I wanted to say, and bounced some ideas off a friend from here (shout-out to Shadow456!!), so I was feeling suprisingly confident, even through the nervousness of the car ride. That is until we both walked into my apartment. I immediately got antsy and my heart was kinda racing. I offered him some sweet tea, and we just sat around (well he sat, I stood haha) talking and eating for a bit.
After about an hour, I finally worked the nerve up to initiate the conversation, figuring that if I didn't then, I'd just blow off the opportunity and never try again.
So I started by saying that this was gonna be really awkward for me and asked him to just bear with me, and prefaced the conversation by saying this obviously had to stay between us, and the only reason I was telling him was because I trusted him so much. He was like "I doubt anything you say would shock me, so just say it" and then I said, "Just give me a minute and you'll understand why this is so nerve wracking"
Then to begin the actual "coming out" part of coming out I just said I had this side of myself I'd been keeping secret for years, and that I liked to kinda act like a kid in my free time. He didn't quite understand what I meant so I then went deeper and said that I like to also do "babyish" things to relax. He started to see where I was going with this, so I listed off a few things; I started light with saying I like to color, and use a sippy cup, and his reaction was fairly calm, so I proceeded to then mention a pacifier and sleeping with stuffed animals, again fairly calm, so then I was like "and I like djapers" and boom just like that it was out in the open.
It was quiet for a sec but he didn't freak out, I broke the silence by saying "Oh my gosh I just told another human being!" And harped on the awkwardness and apologized. I also thanked him immensely for not freaking out, and from there we kinda discussed a little more in depth what I meant.
I didn't tell him everything I do, but I said this is almost a meditative way for me to relax and is something I hated about myself for a long time, but that's changing. We talked about how it affected me in the past and how I'm trying to make it a "normal" part of my life that doesn't constantly drag me down or keep me from my friends. We talked a lot about how this played into my personal and faith life as well, and he said it explained a lot actually about why I usually am afraid to open up and reserve myself from talking about anything considered "emotional" or "deep". He also agreed it was a great idea to tell at least one person about this so it doesn't keep such a tight hold on my life, and was great ful that I trusted him enough to be that someone (he said he felt like he must be doing something right if that was the case, to which I agreed). He also said if I ever needed to talk about it again, he's open to listening. Obviously he won't join in and I'm not gonna do anything related to AB/DL around him, I made sure to stress this is a deeply private thing, but he's willing to help me make it just another part of my life.
So all in all it went so much better than I ever thought it could, we had some good laughs about it, I personally got a huge weight off my shoulders, and he is still one of my best friends, if not the best friend I have and I'm so grateful.
Thank everyone here as well, without this site I'd have never had the help, encouragement, and insight to ever make this possible. Thank you!
So fast forward to post-roller skating, and he actually asked if I could drive him between our apartments, to which I said yes, but it made me really nervous to think that should this conversation not go well, I'm now facing a VERY awkward drive to drop him back at his place.
To be honest, that was the first time I had been nervous all day. I'd read the posts on here about "coming out", thought of what I wanted to say, and bounced some ideas off a friend from here (shout-out to Shadow456!!), so I was feeling suprisingly confident, even through the nervousness of the car ride. That is until we both walked into my apartment. I immediately got antsy and my heart was kinda racing. I offered him some sweet tea, and we just sat around (well he sat, I stood haha) talking and eating for a bit.
After about an hour, I finally worked the nerve up to initiate the conversation, figuring that if I didn't then, I'd just blow off the opportunity and never try again.
So I started by saying that this was gonna be really awkward for me and asked him to just bear with me, and prefaced the conversation by saying this obviously had to stay between us, and the only reason I was telling him was because I trusted him so much. He was like "I doubt anything you say would shock me, so just say it" and then I said, "Just give me a minute and you'll understand why this is so nerve wracking"
Then to begin the actual "coming out" part of coming out I just said I had this side of myself I'd been keeping secret for years, and that I liked to kinda act like a kid in my free time. He didn't quite understand what I meant so I then went deeper and said that I like to also do "babyish" things to relax. He started to see where I was going with this, so I listed off a few things; I started light with saying I like to color, and use a sippy cup, and his reaction was fairly calm, so I proceeded to then mention a pacifier and sleeping with stuffed animals, again fairly calm, so then I was like "and I like djapers" and boom just like that it was out in the open.
It was quiet for a sec but he didn't freak out, I broke the silence by saying "Oh my gosh I just told another human being!" And harped on the awkwardness and apologized. I also thanked him immensely for not freaking out, and from there we kinda discussed a little more in depth what I meant.
I didn't tell him everything I do, but I said this is almost a meditative way for me to relax and is something I hated about myself for a long time, but that's changing. We talked about how it affected me in the past and how I'm trying to make it a "normal" part of my life that doesn't constantly drag me down or keep me from my friends. We talked a lot about how this played into my personal and faith life as well, and he said it explained a lot actually about why I usually am afraid to open up and reserve myself from talking about anything considered "emotional" or "deep". He also agreed it was a great idea to tell at least one person about this so it doesn't keep such a tight hold on my life, and was great ful that I trusted him enough to be that someone (he said he felt like he must be doing something right if that was the case, to which I agreed). He also said if I ever needed to talk about it again, he's open to listening. Obviously he won't join in and I'm not gonna do anything related to AB/DL around him, I made sure to stress this is a deeply private thing, but he's willing to help me make it just another part of my life.
So all in all it went so much better than I ever thought it could, we had some good laughs about it, I personally got a huge weight off my shoulders, and he is still one of my best friends, if not the best friend I have and I'm so grateful.
Thank everyone here as well, without this site I'd have never had the help, encouragement, and insight to ever make this possible. Thank you!