I guess I can understand, too. I was an outcast at school and even though nobody in my school ever found out I loved wearing diapers, things got no better. But school eventually
did end, I got my diploma and got
out. Diapers stayed with me, on and off...life got better in most ways after graduation. As circumstances changed, diapers remained. Even when I tried to get away...it wouldn't work for long. It was no use, it was a part of me so I learned to accept it, especially after my autism diagnosis.
That clarified
everything, including why diapers were such a part of my life. It made sense...so I accepted diapers all the way. But that wasn't the end of it all...then my
girl side came out!
But all things considered, the secrecy, the self-doubt, self-division throughout the years were rough. So this is who I am and always will be. Guess I'll make the best of it, just as with everything else in life...hope you find your own groove!