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it makes me very sad and ashamed because of how i feel and what has happened to me. i am physically disabled and it’s very hard to do the things that i want to do by myself. i just want dress up like a baby girl and maybe even get gender reassignment surgery but i can’t because i’m so embarrassed to tell my family how i feel. most of them wouldn’t understand how i feel. i get anxious living the way i am. i’ve been touched inappropriately before but no one in my life really cares and i have to live with that person. i don’t know if this person is doing it out of stupidity or to take advantage of me but they’re pretty nice otherwise. i’m afraid to say i might be overreacting. i just want to feel like a baby girl and a princess but it’s so hard. i also can’t help my hormones and have addictions to porn and masturbation even though i’m tired of doing it. i don’t want to sexualize women anymore. i’m sorry, i’m just so confused about myself. i don’t even know if i want to actually become a girl at this point. i’m just very sad and cry a lot :(
 
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You would be a perfect candidate for mental health therapy. Just ask your caregiver to see a licensed medical Dr that specializes in mental health. Like a psychiatrist or psychologist.
You dont have to go into detail with your guardian about why. Keep the details for your therapy. Just be insistent that you need it. Because from what I can tell, you do need it.
 
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BabyJosephina said:
it makes me very sad and ashamed because of how i feel and what has happened to me. i am physically disabled and it’s very hard to do the things that i want to do by myself. i just want dress up like a baby girl and maybe even get gender reassignment surgery but i can’t because i’m so embarrassed to tell my family how i feel. most of them wouldn’t understand how i feel. i get anxious living the way i am. i’ve been touched inappropriately before but no one in my life really cares and i have to live with that person. i don’t know if this person is doing it out of stupidity or to take advantage of me but they’re pretty nice otherwise. i’m afraid to say i might be overreacting. i just want to feel like a baby girl and a princess but it’s so hard. i also can’t help my hormones and have addictions to porn and masturbation even though i’m tired of doing it. i don’t want to sexualize women anymore. i’m sorry, i’m just so confused about myself. i don’t even know if i want to actually become a girl at this point. i’m just very sad and cry a lot :(
I do feel bad. I honestly hope you get what you need. I will pray for you if that helps.
 
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Saltedcaramel64 said:
You would be a perfect candidate for mental health therapy. Just ask your caregiver to see a licensed medical Dr that specializes in mental health. Like a psychiatrist or psychologist.
You dont have to go into detail with your guardian about why. Keep the details for your therapy. Just be insistent that you need it. Because from what I can tell, you do need it.
Also, I aggree with the above post.
 
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You need to talk to someone about your problems. Too many people look to escapes which just prolong and intensify their problems. Don’t be afraid to open up to a professional, they have heard everything. Good luck.
 
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it makes me very sad and ashamed because of how i feel and what has happened to me. i am physically disabled and it’s very hard to do the things that i want to do by myself. i just want dress up like a baby girl and maybe even get gender reassignment surgery but i can’t because i’m so embarrassed to tell my family how i feel. most of them wouldn’t understand how i feel. i get anxious living the way i am. i’ve been touched inappropriately before but no one in my life really cares and i have to live with that person. i don’t know if this person is doing it out of stupidity or to take advantage of me but they’re pretty nice otherwise. i’m afraid to say i might be overreacting. i just want to feel like a baby girl and a princess but it’s so hard. i also can’t help my hormones and have addictions to porn and masturbation even though i’m tired of doing it. i don’t want to sexualize women anymore. i’m sorry, i’m just so confused about myself. i don’t even know if i want to actually become a girl at this point. i’m just very sad and cry a lot :(
Hello babyjoshaphina! I really really recommend you talk to a doctor about your feelings.. I just think I can't help you. But I'm sure a professional can.. life can be amazing! We just need to find ourselves first...
 
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We both can relate too much. 😔

For you see, I too have suffered so much through my own years of preteen-teenage hood. Nothing awful ever happened to me; but in all those years of puberty and trying to find myself I’ve done nothing but suffered from endless confusion and depression.

Also like you, I too have been fathomed by thoughts of wanting to dress, be, and act like a girl but of course my pure religious, old fashioned family wouldn’t hear the last of it if I told them.

I was smitten once by my mom for wanting to cross dress only at conventions; she had the audacity to quote the Bible to me and told me how sinful it is for one to wear the opposite gender’s clothing. 😑 You understand now why keeping my trans secret is still going.

Not saying my life is entirely depressing or bad; but it certainly would’ve played out a little better if I were to be born the opposite gender than I am now; or at least have a family who wasn’t super religious and actually cared about my happiness.

But I certainly hope you find what you’re seeking and that hopefully your life will become better overtime. ❤️
 
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Maybe even get gender reassignment surgery.
Gender affirmation surgery refers to procedures that help people transition to their self-identified gender. Gender-affirming options may include facial surgery, top surgery, or bottom surgery. Most people who choose gender affirmation surgeries report improved mental health and quality of life because their physical body matches their gender identity. However, people who choose gender affirmation surgery do so because they experience gender dysphoria, the distress that occurs when one’s sex assigned at birth does not match their gender identity. The term transgender describes someone whose gender identity is different from the sex assigned at birth. Gender nonbinary describes someone whose gender identity does not fit within traditional female or male categories. Such people may opt for gender affirmation medical treatment or surgery that gives transgender people a body that aligns with their gender. It may involve procedures on the face, chest, or genitalia. Standard transgender surgery options include facial reconstructive surgery to make facial features more masculine or feminine; chest or “Top” surgery to remove breast tissue for a more masculine appearance, or enhance breast size and shape for a more feminine appearance; and genital or “Bottom” surgery to transform and reconstruct the genitalia. Surgery is just one option.

Unfortunately, not everyone who is transgender or nonbinary chooses to have surgery. Depending on one’s age and preferences, one may choose hormone therapy to increase masculine or feminine characteristics, such as body hair or vocal tone; puberty blockers to prevent puberty from happening; and voice therapy to adjust one’s voice or tone or help with communication skills, such as introducing oneself with their pronouns. People may also socially transition to their true gender with or without surgery. For example, as part of social transitioning, one might adopt a new name, choose different pronouns, and present their gender identity by wearing different clothing or changing their hairstyle. Around 1 in 4 transgender and nonbinary people choose gender affirmation surgery. Before surgery, work with a trusted healthcare provider. A healthcare provider can help one understand the risks and benefits of all surgery options. Many insurance companies require the submission of specific documentation before they cover a gender-affirming surgery. This documentation includes health records showing consistent gender dysphoria and a letter of support from a mental health provider, such as a social worker or psychiatrist.

What happens during surgery varies depending on the procedure. One may choose facial surgery, top surgery, bottom surgery, or a combination of these operations. For example, facial surgery may change one’s cheekbones (for transgender women, injections to enhance the cheekbones), chin (one may opt to soften or more prominently define their chin’s angles), jaw (a surgeon may shave down the jawbone or use fillers to enhance the jaw), or nose (one may have a rhinoplasty, surgery to reshape the nose). A transgender woman (assigned male at birth or AMAB) may have other surgeries, including adam’s apple reduction, placement of breast implants (breast augmentation), removal of the penis and scrotum (penectomy and orchiectomy), and construction of a vagina and labia (feminizing genitoplasty). A transgender man (assigned female at birth or AFAB) may have other surgeries, including breast reduction or mastectomy, removal of the ovaries and uterus (oophorectomy and hysterectomy), and construction of a penis and scrotum (metoidioplasty, phalloplasty, and scrotoplasty). Recovery times vary based on the procedure or combination of procedures: cheek and nose surgery (Swelling lasts for around two to four weeks), chin and jaw surgery (Most swelling fades within two weeks, but swelling may take up to four months to disappear), chest surgery (Swelling and soreness last for one to two weeks, but avoid vigorous activity for at least one month), and bottom surgery. Most people do not resume usual activities until at least six weeks after surgery.

Have weekly follow-ups with the healthcare provider for a few months to ensure that one is healing well. Surgery is only one part of the transitioning process. After surgery, work with a therapist or counselor. This professional supports social transitioning and one’s mental health. The transgender individuals who have chosen gender-affirming surgery have long-term mental health benefits. A person’s odds of needing mental health treatment declined by 8% each year after the gender-affirming procedure. Different procedures carry different risks. For example, individuals with bottom surgery may have changes to their sexual sensation or trouble with bladder emptying. In general, significant complications are rare, as long as an experienced surgeon is performing the procedure. There is a small risk of complications with any surgery, including bleeding, infection, and side effects of anesthesia. However, most people who choose these surgeries experience an improvement in their quality of life. Depending on the procedure, 94% to 100% of people report being satisfied with their surgery results. In general, people who work with a mental health provider before surgery tend to experience more satisfaction with their treatment results. After surgery, see the healthcare provider if there is bleeding for more than a few days after surgery, pain that does not go away after several weeks, or signs of infection, such as a wound that changes color or does not heal.
 
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SeniorMan said:
Gender affirmation surgery refers to procedures that help people transition to their self-identified gender. Gender-affirming options may include facial surgery, top surgery, or bottom surgery. Most people who choose gender affirmation surgeries report improved mental health and quality of life because their physical body matches their gender identity. However, people who choose gender affirmation surgery do so because they experience gender dysphoria, the distress that occurs when one’s sex assigned at birth does not match their gender identity. The term transgender describes someone whose gender identity is different from the sex assigned at birth. Gender nonbinary describes someone whose gender identity does not fit within traditional female or male categories. Such people may opt for gender affirmation medical treatment or surgery that gives transgender people a body that aligns with their gender. It may involve procedures on the face, chest, or genitalia. Standard transgender surgery options include facial reconstructive surgery to make facial features more masculine or feminine; chest or “Top” surgery to remove breast tissue for a more masculine appearance, or enhance breast size and shape for a more feminine appearance; and genital or “Bottom” surgery to transform and reconstruct the genitalia. Surgery is just one option.

Unfortunately, not everyone who is transgender or nonbinary chooses to have surgery. Depending on one’s age and preferences, one may choose hormone therapy to increase masculine or feminine characteristics, such as body hair or vocal tone; puberty blockers to prevent puberty from happening; and voice therapy to adjust one’s voice or tone or help with communication skills, such as introducing oneself with their pronouns. People may also socially transition to their true gender with or without surgery. For example, as part of social transitioning, one might adopt a new name, choose different pronouns, and present their gender identity by wearing different clothing or changing their hairstyle. Around 1 in 4 transgender and nonbinary people choose gender affirmation surgery. Before surgery, work with a trusted healthcare provider. A healthcare provider can help one understand the risks and benefits of all surgery options. Many insurance companies require the submission of specific documentation before they cover a gender-affirming surgery. This documentation includes health records showing consistent gender dysphoria and a letter of support from a mental health provider, such as a social worker or psychiatrist.

What happens during surgery varies depending on the procedure. One may choose facial surgery, top surgery, bottom surgery, or a combination of these operations. For example, facial surgery may change one’s cheekbones (for transgender women, injections to enhance the cheekbones), chin (one may opt to soften or more prominently define their chin’s angles), jaw (a surgeon may shave down the jawbone or use fillers to enhance the jaw), or nose (one may have a rhinoplasty, surgery to reshape the nose). A transgender woman (assigned male at birth or AMAB) may have other surgeries, including adam’s apple reduction, placement of breast implants (breast augmentation), removal of the penis and scrotum (penectomy and orchiectomy), and construction of a vagina and labia (feminizing genitoplasty). A transgender man (assigned female at birth or AFAB) may have other surgeries, including breast reduction or mastectomy, removal of the ovaries and uterus (oophorectomy and hysterectomy), and construction of a penis and scrotum (metoidioplasty, phalloplasty, and scrotoplasty). Recovery times vary based on the procedure or combination of procedures: cheek and nose surgery (Swelling lasts for around two to four weeks), chin and jaw surgery (Most swelling fades within two weeks, but swelling may take up to four months to disappear), chest surgery (Swelling and soreness last for one to two weeks, but avoid vigorous activity for at least one month), and bottom surgery. Most people do not resume usual activities until at least six weeks after surgery.

Have weekly follow-ups with the healthcare provider for a few months to ensure that one is healing well. Surgery is only one part of the transitioning process. After surgery, work with a therapist or counselor. This professional supports social transitioning and one’s mental health. The transgender individuals who have chosen gender-affirming surgery have long-term mental health benefits. A person’s odds of needing mental health treatment declined by 8% each year after the gender-affirming procedure. Different procedures carry different risks. For example, individuals with bottom surgery may have changes to their sexual sensation or trouble with bladder emptying. In general, significant complications are rare, as long as an experienced surgeon is performing the procedure. There is a small risk of complications with any surgery, including bleeding, infection, and side effects of anesthesia. However, most people who choose these surgeries experience an improvement in their quality of life. Depending on the procedure, 94% to 100% of people report being satisfied with their surgery results. In general, people who work with a mental health provider before surgery tend to experience more satisfaction with their treatment results. After surgery, see the healthcare provider if there is bleeding for more than a few days after surgery, pain that does not go away after several weeks, or signs of infection, such as a wound that changes color or does not heal.
Wow. Thanks for the very informative post. May I ask why you know so much on this particular subject?
 
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KittyninjaW said:
I do feel bad. I honestly hope you get what you need. I will pray for you if that helps.
thank you so much! that would help a lot ❤️
 
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Saltedcaramel64 said:
You would be a perfect candidate for mental health therapy. Just ask your caregiver to see a licensed medical Dr that specializes in mental health. Like a psychiatrist or psychologist.
You dont have to go into detail with your guardian about why. Keep the details for your therapy. Just be insistent that you need it. Because from what I can tell, you do need it.
yes i’ve been thinking about that. i’m becoming more comfortable with it. i think i can purchase it myself without needing to go through anyone else. thank you though ❤️
 
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You need to talk to someone about your problems. Too many people look to escapes which just prolong and intensify their problems. Don’t be afraid to open up to a professional, they have heard everything. Good luck.
yes i’m starting to do that more. i want to start therapy soon and i realize i have more of a support group than i thought. thank you! ❤️
 
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Hello babyjoshaphina! I really really recommend you talk to a doctor about your feelings.. I just think I can't help you. But I'm sure a professional can.. life can be amazing! We just need to find ourselves first...
yes i know it can! i’m going to try therapy soon hopefully ❤️
 
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GoodniteLover219 said:
We both can relate too much. 😔

For you see, I too have suffered so much through my own years of preteen-teenage hood. Nothing awful ever happened to me; but in all those years of puberty and trying to find myself I’ve done nothing but suffered from endless confusion and depression.

Also like you, I too have been fathomed by thoughts of wanting to dress, be, and act like a girl but of course my pure religious, old fashioned family wouldn’t hear the last of it if I told them.

I was smitten once by my mom for wanting to cross dress only at conventions; she had the audacity to quote the Bible to me and told me how sinful it is for one to wear the opposite gender’s clothing. 😑 You understand now why keeping my trans secret is still going.

Not saying my life is entirely depressing or bad; but it certainly would’ve played out a little better if I were to be born the opposite gender than I am now; or at least have a family who wasn’t super religious and actually cared about my happiness.

But I certainly hope you find what you’re seeking and that hopefully your life will become better overtime. ❤️
i understand you completely. i wasn’t necessarily thinking about this my whole life but i remember when i was really little when the adults would tell me not to play with girls stuff so i didn’t. now i just wish i had and that i would’ve been born differently sometimes. i wish i could be a boy and a girl when i’d like and change magically 😊. but thank you very much! ❤️
 
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SeniorMan said:
Gender affirmation surgery refers to procedures that help people transition to their self-identified gender. Gender-affirming options may include facial surgery, top surgery, or bottom surgery. Most people who choose gender affirmation surgeries report improved mental health and quality of life because their physical body matches their gender identity. However, people who choose gender affirmation surgery do so because they experience gender dysphoria, the distress that occurs when one’s sex assigned at birth does not match their gender identity. The term transgender describes someone whose gender identity is different from the sex assigned at birth. Gender nonbinary describes someone whose gender identity does not fit within traditional female or male categories. Such people may opt for gender affirmation medical treatment or surgery that gives transgender people a body that aligns with their gender. It may involve procedures on the face, chest, or genitalia. Standard transgender surgery options include facial reconstructive surgery to make facial features more masculine or feminine; chest or “Top” surgery to remove breast tissue for a more masculine appearance, or enhance breast size and shape for a more feminine appearance; and genital or “Bottom” surgery to transform and reconstruct the genitalia. Surgery is just one option.

Unfortunately, not everyone who is transgender or nonbinary chooses to have surgery. Depending on one’s age and preferences, one may choose hormone therapy to increase masculine or feminine characteristics, such as body hair or vocal tone; puberty blockers to prevent puberty from happening; and voice therapy to adjust one’s voice or tone or help with communication skills, such as introducing oneself with their pronouns. People may also socially transition to their true gender with or without surgery. For example, as part of social transitioning, one might adopt a new name, choose different pronouns, and present their gender identity by wearing different clothing or changing their hairstyle. Around 1 in 4 transgender and nonbinary people choose gender affirmation surgery. Before surgery, work with a trusted healthcare provider. A healthcare provider can help one understand the risks and benefits of all surgery options. Many insurance companies require the submission of specific documentation before they cover a gender-affirming surgery. This documentation includes health records showing consistent gender dysphoria and a letter of support from a mental health provider, such as a social worker or psychiatrist.

What happens during surgery varies depending on the procedure. One may choose facial surgery, top surgery, bottom surgery, or a combination of these operations. For example, facial surgery may change one’s cheekbones (for transgender women, injections to enhance the cheekbones), chin (one may opt to soften or more prominently define their chin’s angles), jaw (a surgeon may shave down the jawbone or use fillers to enhance the jaw), or nose (one may have a rhinoplasty, surgery to reshape the nose). A transgender woman (assigned male at birth or AMAB) may have other surgeries, including adam’s apple reduction, placement of breast implants (breast augmentation), removal of the penis and scrotum (penectomy and orchiectomy), and construction of a vagina and labia (feminizing genitoplasty). A transgender man (assigned female at birth or AFAB) may have other surgeries, including breast reduction or mastectomy, removal of the ovaries and uterus (oophorectomy and hysterectomy), and construction of a penis and scrotum (metoidioplasty, phalloplasty, and scrotoplasty). Recovery times vary based on the procedure or combination of procedures: cheek and nose surgery (Swelling lasts for around two to four weeks), chin and jaw surgery (Most swelling fades within two weeks, but swelling may take up to four months to disappear), chest surgery (Swelling and soreness last for one to two weeks, but avoid vigorous activity for at least one month), and bottom surgery. Most people do not resume usual activities until at least six weeks after surgery.

Have weekly follow-ups with the healthcare provider for a few months to ensure that one is healing well. Surgery is only one part of the transitioning process. After surgery, work with a therapist or counselor. This professional supports social transitioning and one’s mental health. The transgender individuals who have chosen gender-affirming surgery have long-term mental health benefits. A person’s odds of needing mental health treatment declined by 8% each year after the gender-affirming procedure. Different procedures carry different risks. For example, individuals with bottom surgery may have changes to their sexual sensation or trouble with bladder emptying. In general, significant complications are rare, as long as an experienced surgeon is performing the procedure. There is a small risk of complications with any surgery, including bleeding, infection, and side effects of anesthesia. However, most people who choose these surgeries experience an improvement in their quality of life. Depending on the procedure, 94% to 100% of people report being satisfied with their surgery results. In general, people who work with a mental health provider before surgery tend to experience more satisfaction with their treatment results. After surgery, see the healthcare provider if there is bleeding for more than a few days after surgery, pain that does not go away after several weeks, or signs of infection, such as a wound that changes color or does not heal.
thank you for the info! i will contemplate it ❤️
 
Kittyinpink said:
Wow. Thanks for the very informative post. May I ask why you know so much on this particular subject?
That is cut and pasted information from another source.
 
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