I am lucky in one way because I have always had a fetish/desire for diapers not a little one but you get the idea, the reason I say lucky is because nocturia (night time increase in need to urinate) and bowel cancer means I have no choice but to wear, accepting the desire side just stopped all the stress and self worth problems.
Less of a omg I have to wear diapers now and more of a yay I get to wear them now.
If I don't then needing to go toilet every hour during the night which can quickly wear down your energy levels, I even tried keeping a hospital style bottle next to the bed but it still always meant waking up every hour and sleepiness meant accidents.
Leaking is always a problem but I have washable pads for my bed, I wear Tena ultimate, 2 layers of terry pants and plastic pants on the outside (sleep on my side) 50% chance I will go through the night without the pads getting wet but I am use to it and part of my routine.
Can not put into words how nice it is to sleep for 5-6 hours a night without waking.
Sometimes I also wear during the day.
No fix for what is wrong.
I had a bad reaction to a blood pressure tablet, (kidneys are fine and working efficiently which is part of the problem) caused me to gain about 1-2kg of liquid water weight on my ankles and legs during the day, as soon as night time comes and once I lay down in bed it all goes straight to my bladder, added to that the night time rhythm is also damaged so no reduction of urine creation during the night.
Bowel cancer (in remission but 40% of bowels were removed and that comes with its own issues that have no fix)
Always looking at new diapers but most I find too expensive, tena seem to absorb a good amount before leaking into the terry cloth pants.
Amount of water I drink has no bearing at all on how much I need to go during the night, I can even stop drinking at 6pm and no difference.
So this is what I cope with and yes I am really happy that I am able to see it as a positive, living alone since my Wife died (she was fine with it anyway) means I do all the laundry and being classed as severely disabled means I don't leave the house much anyway.
Less of a omg I have to wear diapers now and more of a yay I get to wear them now.
If I don't then needing to go toilet every hour during the night which can quickly wear down your energy levels, I even tried keeping a hospital style bottle next to the bed but it still always meant waking up every hour and sleepiness meant accidents.
Leaking is always a problem but I have washable pads for my bed, I wear Tena ultimate, 2 layers of terry pants and plastic pants on the outside (sleep on my side) 50% chance I will go through the night without the pads getting wet but I am use to it and part of my routine.
Can not put into words how nice it is to sleep for 5-6 hours a night without waking.
Sometimes I also wear during the day.
No fix for what is wrong.
I had a bad reaction to a blood pressure tablet, (kidneys are fine and working efficiently which is part of the problem) caused me to gain about 1-2kg of liquid water weight on my ankles and legs during the day, as soon as night time comes and once I lay down in bed it all goes straight to my bladder, added to that the night time rhythm is also damaged so no reduction of urine creation during the night.
Bowel cancer (in remission but 40% of bowels were removed and that comes with its own issues that have no fix)
Always looking at new diapers but most I find too expensive, tena seem to absorb a good amount before leaking into the terry cloth pants.
Amount of water I drink has no bearing at all on how much I need to go during the night, I can even stop drinking at 6pm and no difference.
So this is what I cope with and yes I am really happy that I am able to see it as a positive, living alone since my Wife died (she was fine with it anyway) means I do all the laundry and being classed as severely disabled means I don't leave the house much anyway.