First thing, I absolutely love being ‘back in diapers‘. I’m quite sure that’s due to being trained too soon. As we all know, some kids get really attached to wearing diapers. With me, I’ve never liked change to routine, especially a pleasurable one overall. (Lots of kids don’t like to stop for diaper changes, but that just means they do like the convenience of diapers.)
So I’m saying I found toilet training distressing, it made me unhappy, and want my diapers back! Later on, I was distressed by other things, and diapers were what came to mind, although, by then, being back in diapers would have been a proxy for being a baby again, before life became complicated, and distressing.
So, yes, I wear diapers for anxiety, but, for me, it’s much more to ward it off than to decompress. In fact, my goal is to never be anxious, with daily diaper wearing, and wearing at night, being medication, effectively.
They sell a lot of weighted blankets, which doesn’t mean they work for everyone, and they didn’t for me. But a diaper does. In fact, I seldom use my diaper for the ordinary purpose. When I do, it involves gratification, but that doesn’t undermine my claim that I wear diapers, to pretend baby, to create a safe space. Masturbating in diapers is just something I learned, well after I started wearing them, feels very good, a mere bonus, that has never been my primary motivation.
