The Importance of Not Being Stupid

[spacemanBEN]

I thought I'd share one of my somewhat funny experiences that explains the importance of thinking things through before acting out of desperation. The events occurred about five years ago, so they are by no means recent, but they certainly taught me the importance of not being stupid surrounding infantilism.

I guess I was about 12 and it was summer time. Near the beginning of the summer I came across the AB/DL community for the first time and was reading about it quite obsessively, but not for informational purposes. In fact, despite all this reading, I managed to miss the fact that an AB/DL community existed in the first place (I didn't rediscover this until a few months ago). During this time, infantilism went from being purely an innocent childhood desire, to something sexually-charged. Pretty much I was a stupid 12-year-old at this time who was just discovering his own sexuality.

Anyways, I was staying over at my grandparents for the week. I was using their internet to view AB/DL sites too and began to become very desperate for diapers. One night I decided to create my own diaper using all four or five pairs of my tighty-whities. That's it; no plastic or anything to stop any flooding. Not a good idea at all! I promptly went "to bed", though I don't think I slept at all that night. I wet myself and of course it quickly soaked through all of the pairs of underwear leaving a nice wet patch on the bed and all of the underwear utterly soaked.

Of course, I hadn't thought about what I'd actually do with the underwear afterwards. Now all my underwear was soaked and smelly. Luckily I had the sense to try to wash them in the sink, though I didn't do this very well. I then hid the still very wet and smelly underwear under the bed where they stayed until I went home a few days later.

When I got home, the underwear remained unpleasantly wet and obviously peed in, so I decided to hide them in my room. I then had the unpleasant task of explaining to my parents where all my underwear went. I claimed that they were too small, so I had decided to throw them out. Of course, they were not found in the garbage at my house or at my Grandparent's, so my parents knew this was not the case. I did manage to throw the underwear out a couple weeks later, but my parents were notably suspicious of me (and confused) following this.

To make matters worse, I was later caught by my Dad looking at some pretty sexual AB/DL sites (ones I wouldn't go to now) just a couple weeks later. I had been claiming to be playing solitaire on the computer, but I finally got caught doing what I really was up to. This just confused them further, though they just thought I was sexually confused at the time and never even considered the fact that I might be an AB/DL as they hadn't heard of infantilism and I was never going to admit that I was sexually aroused by this. They also didn't tie this together with the missing underwear thank goodness and made a wise decision in not confronting me about my sexuality as this would have made matters worse for sure. I just recently finally told my parents about my infantilism and received a mixed reaction, but I'm so glad to have it off my chest!

I lost all trust with my parents following these events, trust which I'm still working to gain back. Plus I lost access to the internet for months. It was horrible. In fact, I was scared into ignoring my desires to buy infantile objects for about four years following this, fears I am just starting to get over now because I finally am starting to accept myself. However, I did learn some very important lessons from these events like the importance of caution and now I'm a fair deal smarter. So in short, don't be stupid, think things through, and stay away from acts of desperation. Has anybody else had unpleasant experiences such as this that have taught them a similar lesson?

[Connor92]

Great read! Yes, the dumbest, and I mean dumbest thing i had ever done (period, not just about dl stuff) was leave open my email on my computer (FAMILY COMPUTER MIND YOU!!). Dont know what I was thinking, but anyways. What i was doing was talking to another DL via email. My parents found this, and, well, im sure you know it didnt go over to well.... They thought I was talking to some pervert. Then, my mom went through my Fu***ng room and found my stash of diapers. Literally, my worst nightmare, come true. I truly think I was in shock, because I just remember thinking how this couldnt be happening, and how my life was over. I talked to them about it, and said id never email the guy again, which I didnt. But, in the end, I learned there are much worse things in life. But, at the time, it was utter terror.

[Vaultin]

I actually did almost the EXACT same thing. My mom never did find out what happened to that underwear.

[ballucanb]

I did the deal with the underwear, but I didn't wear them to bed, and I washed them afterwards.

We all do stupid stuff, no one thinks things thru when you young, I wouldn't worry about it, you have to make yourself happy no one will do it for you.

If you did some of the stuff parents worry so much about, I think they would be happy if that was all you were into.

[Maverick]

Thanks for sharing that story, BaBBen. It's very important to not be stupid, especially if you're an infantilist, because you definitely do not want to screw up.

I also wet/messed underwear when I was younger and didn't have any diapers. Mom only found them once and she asked me why I did it and I think I said "I don't know" and she said "Were you too lazy to go to the bathroom, so you decided to wet your pants? That's disgusting." And then I just bowed my head and played along like that's what my intention behind it was. It was too easy, she practically gave me an excuse!

But there were other pairs of underwear that she never found. Nevertheless, she was always wondering where all of my underwear was going. But I was lucky here too. I have a dad who frequently takes my and my sisters' clothes out of our draws and disposes of them (very long story). So when mom asked me, "Where's all of your underwear?" I said "I dunno; dad probably took them."

[Ecto]

I did something similar back when I was around 14. I found this big stash of old cloth diapers that my mom had been using as rags for the past decade. I had always known about them, but it wasn't until I was that age where I finally realized one night "wait a sec...I do have diapers!". So what I did was go downstairs, take several diapers, and stuff them in a pair of tighty whiteys to wear as one giant diaper.Thing is I wasn't aware of the existence of plastic panties nor the necessity for them. Oddly enough I never had any problems with wet floors or anything like that since I bulked up so much that all the urine was absorbed before the outer layers became oversaturated.

Now for the stupid part: I didn't really understand how to wash them, nor did I like doing it. I also wasn't very good at hiding stuff yet. I'm not going to go into details since I don't want to gross anyone out, but I will say that it was really stupid, and it was because of that that my mom first discovered my stash.

Stupid thing #2: After finding the stash my mom asked if I was having problems with bedwetting and wanted diapers (since I had been a bedwetter for most of my life up to that point). However, I was too proud about getting over bedwetting to say "yes" so I just created a really dumb excuse (which amazingly enough my mom believed) and missed out on a great opportunity to not only get diapers but erase all suspicion.

Stupid thing #3: After my parents found out that I was going to ABDL sites (this may have been before or after my stash got found, can't remember) I was asked about the bedwetting again. And again I refused and said everything was fine in that department.

Stupid thing #4: I used to really suck at hiding stuff. When I first got disposables in my house I hid them under the bed. Eventually my sister decided to go poking around in my room, found them, and asked me about it. I was flabbergasted that she found out and tried to play dumb (I'm not even going to repeat what I said because then you would all think I'm retarded). She obviously didn't believe me but left the issue alone and never mentioned it again. I suppose she thought it was to help with bedwetting (those 6-10 years of accidents sure did save my stupid ass on many occasions).

[Yumi]

My stupid thing: I hid diapers in my closet, and then when my mom found the last one.. I lied and told her a friend put it there as a joke.. LOL.. She found another, again and told me she was gonna tell my friends mother. This is where I just had to step in. I eventually came out about my infantilism, and my mom told the whole family. They don't talk about it to my face, no, they talk about it behind my back.

[Lukie]

Originally Posted by Yumi

My stupid thing: I hid diapers in my closet, and then when my mom found the last one.. I lied and told her a friend put it there as a joke.. LOL.. She found another, again and told me she was gonna tell my friends mother. This is where I just had to step in. I eventually came out about my infantilism, and my mom told the whole family. They don't talk about it to my face, no, they talk about it behind my back.

Ugh, you really got to hate it when no one is willing to talk to you, yet everyone else seems like a good place to go with gossip.

One thing I've never liked is when I've gone to family reunions or get-togethers and relatives who I haven't seen in a while start talking to me about stuff that they would not have known unless someone told them. It's happened on a few occasion over a some embarrassing incidents and I really cracked the shits at my parents for saying stuff about it. It's just a pet peeve of mine, but unfortunately it's developed to the stage where I hardly tell anyone anything personal and I'm not fond of a lot of my relatives. Kind of makes me feel superficial in conversation...

In response, they call me the "black sheep" of the family, which annoys me even more.

[Millenniumfalsehood]

The dumbest thing I ever did in regards to infatilism is the time I ordered the Goodnites free samples. I read the site's forum and someone said the came in a blank cardboard box, so I promptly ordered some. Stupid me, I put my actual name on it. Anyway, they arrived in the mail and I had completely forgotten about them. I was in my room, and my mom and sister were laughing at something, so I stepped out and saw them with a purple plastic package with two Goodnites and some papers. One of the papers was a fictional story about me wetting the bed, looking up Goodnites on the internet, and persuading my parents to get me some. I said I knew nothing about them and went back into my room.

But wait, that's not the dumb part, it gets better:

Later that day I had no idea where they had put the stuff, so I was discretely looking around for it. But I never found it. However, I went to the upstairs bathroom and lo and behold there was all the stuff right there on top of the magazines! So naturally, I put on both Goodnites and with my underwear on over them, and walked downstairs and into my room. I still don't know how my mom didn't see the obvious bulge. I got to my room and, get this, I put one of them under the bed in plain sight, right there not an inch from where the blankets touch the floor. I wore the other one to bed. The next day my mom and I were doing my science course(I was homeschooled) and she told me to go get my science book. I couldn't find it, so I asked her to help me. BIG . . . MISTAKE!! The *very* first place she looked was under my bed, and she called my dad down there to see it. I was sitting in a chair, thinking how much more trouble I would be in if they knew I was actually wearing one of the diapers(a wet one, at that), and my mom said something to the line of "Now we know who's been playing with diapers." I don't remember exactly what followed, but I know I got a stern talking-to about it.

Later I took the other diaper after they took it from me and hid it again, this time between the sheets. I told my mom I threw it away.

[EpicPie]

^ i lol'ed so hard.