I have been regressing ALOT due to stress and horrible life circumstances and mental illness. It has allowed me a sense of safety and security, no doubt. But now I feel "stuck." Indulging in my little side is becoming a major issue in moving forward. Not sure what to do but maybe the community can offer support of insights.
My most recent private therapist said I need to let go of my little side in order to maximize my recovery... Part of me agrees because I don't believe "I" can mix the two worlds and find balance. I think I will always overindulge in my little side, even at the expense of priorities. Keep in mind I suffer mental illness and when I say regressed: I don't always mean by choice. I mean it is actually becoming an issue where I lose the ability to function independently in the adult world and in reality.
After visiting a psych hospital frequently last month and bringing a bunch of diapers, a blankie, a pillow and a teddy bear: a psychiatric team at a hospital (made up of psychiatrists, psychologists, psych nurses and doctors) told me that perhaps I should go out and meet other littles and ABDLs. They told me that it is okay to use my little side as a set of skills. When a nurse interviewed me I wrapped up in my blankie and began to cry because she really touched my heart with her kindness and soft voice. She asked me why I was crying and I said I felt really little... They brought me to my bed, offered me juice and some snacks and put up the railings to form a crib. They even put a warm blankie on me!! It was so comforting!!! They kept asking my teddy bear's name but I wouldnt tell them. I joked that maybe I should throw my teddy in a box in a closet and they said no! They said if anything, just put my teddy somewhere in my room where I can grab her again when the time comes. They said to take it easy because it takes time to make a transition from regressed to more adult like state. (In terms of working through psychological arrested development).
I went to a cuddle party for the first time with two ABDL's and want to do it again. I find myself both wanting and not wanting to indulge in this lifestyle. It's as though it is a perfect short term method of stress relief but it is ineffective long term. So I may need to find an alternative and save little space for intense emotions and stress only. It is as though the more I regress by choice, the more I regress psychologically, thereby decreasing my ability to live a functional life in the adult world.
Can anyone relate?
Problem is I have no life at the moment. I need to find a job and get priorities met but I literally just lay in bed with my teddies and diapers and blankies. I am spending more time with my little side than my adult side and it could potentially lead to major issues like homelessness and further mental health suffering...
What do I do?
I need advice and insight.