I won't tell you my real name, but you can call be CuddleFish. I like alternative and classical music, tabletop role playing, and (as the name suggests) cephalopods. Oh! and cuddles.
I came here because I can't really share my little side with anybody I know. I have always had to keep it a secret. This is especially tough as I still live with my parents so I can't exactly crawl around the house in diapers as I would like to.
I suppose I'm also struggling with the whole "grownup" thing. While part of me really wants to be little again I am also struggleing to be a more independent adult. Ideally I would like to find a balance between holding down the kind of career and responsibilities somebody my age should have while also being able to spend a lot of my free time in little space. Unfortunately I suffer from a lot of depression and other issues which make searching for work difficult, and I am maybe a bit to scared by the notion of moving out on my own.
An other issue I have is trying to find a partner. I am freakishly tall, and a trans woman, which actually isn't that much of a setback on its own. But then you add the fact that I am an ABDL and asexual and the dating pool suddenly becomes much smaller. I have had partners in the past who I told about my little side, and they were all turned off by it. I have tried looking for partners through ABDL and fettish websites, but I frankly find these communities really intimedating, and at the end of the day everyone on there is interested in sex, which I am not.
Anyway; I look forward to talking to you fine people. It feels soooo good to open up about this. ^_^