Where to begin.....
Wife asked me yesterday if she could wear one of my diapers!! Heck ya she can! But let's talk bout yesterday afternoon first.
So, yesterday morning everythings good. At work we had a lunch meeting at a restaurant. At the end, as I stood up, I started peeing without having control. I tried to stop it but couldn't. Okay, so about 2 hrs after lunch I had an urge to go #2. As I got up to go use the restroom because I didn't want to mess at work, I had to clench as hard as I could to hold it in. I was clenching all the way to the bathroom. As soon as I touched the door to the bathroom, it came out. Seriously??? Luckily no one was in the bathroom, So I cleaned up and made my way back to my office and shut my door and put a new diaper on. As soon as I pulled my pants up, I started peeing and couldn't stop it. What the crap!
Between that moment and walking into my apartment, I did not recall wetting my diaper but was soaked when I got home. Seriously getting scared by this point. I called the Dr and made an appointment for April 7th to get this checked out. I seriously have to wait 2 weeks! After dinner, I put on a fresh diaper and did some dishes and about 1 hr after dinnerI decided to get my mind off this by going on a run. About 2 miles from my apartment I got a cramp. I stopped and bent over a little bit and what I though was me passing gas well was hardly the case. I had messed my diaper again and right after that happened I automatically started peeing. No control whatsoever. Now I have 2 miles to make it back to my apartment. When I got back, my wife was showering, so I cleaned up and showered and put a fresh diaper on and my t-shirt and sweatpants ( we have separate bathrooms ) Normally, I put on a onesie and my footed pajamas but by this point, I wasn't in the mood.
My wife out of nowhere asked if she could try on one of my diapers. I was babbling stupid words like an idiot. Of course! She took one of my diapers and went back into the bathroom to put it on. She came out with only the diaper and had on one of my t-shirts. She looked extremely embarrassed. I told her she looked sexy and she said the same back.
We both sat on the couch and started to watch tv. She got up and walked in front of me and bent over to grab her laptop and school work for her grad class. There she is, bending down in front of me with her diaper butt right there in my face! 1 year ago I was depressed because she didn't know this side about me and thought this moment would never come.
Little later she asked if we could put on the onesies and footed pajamas. I said of course even though I really wasn't in the mood and fed up with my issues. But, again, as I stood up from the couch, I started peeing and couldn't stop. Like, today I had no control whatsoever. We got into bed and cuddled up. Again, such an awesome feeling.
This morning I woke up around 4am, stilling cuddling her, in a soaked diaper and the bed too was soaked and her back was a little bit wet also. Not only that, I had messed again! I told my wife I had been wetting in my sleep for about 15 days and been trying to work through it and "will call dr to make an appointment".
She said it's okay and we can get a protective cover for the bed. I told her that I feel the reason I'm wetting in my sleep is because of the anxiety issues. Which, I'm hoping is the truth behind all this. I'm seriously scared to not wear a diaper! This morning after my shower, I waited to put a diaper on and grabbed a glass of water to test to see if I still have control and to see if this is just a psychological issue. The wife was in the shower and I was heating up oatmeal and sure enough, i was wetting my sweatpants. So now I'm back in a diaper and debating about calling off work today sick and just doing some work from home. I'm supposed to be driving to my project today that is 1.5 hours away from home.
So, I'm excited for my wife that took the diaper plunge and I'm scared....ANY HELP IS APPRECIATED.