I don't know if this is me missing the point, but I never truly identified myself properly when I was younger, trying to find something to call myself me, which ended up feeling removed from general society and alone. ABDL was something I did identify with but I still didn't like the grouping, and day to day everything would change, how I feel about gender / orientation / fetishes etc. Another point is that I was told I had aspergers, but from looking myself I think I be a sociopath, and this adds to my feeling of separation from everyone else.
And I think I've concluded that I don't like any identity, I don't want to group myself with anyone else like this. As well as this I don't believe in souls, or any other supernatural ideology. And the idea that we are the same person is an illusion, we may look the same, sound the same and think very similar, but were so slightly different, and we always are different, hence the idea that we have a constance of being I think is false.
So why do I try and put myself with identities? I think differently to other people as well, meaning I find it hard to understand other people, but I have recently disowned (personally) the idea that I'm the same as other people.
I think the response people would say is that I want to feel different, the identify I'm searching for is one I can truly own myself. And I don't think I can answer, I want to dispel this theory and say I just want to be identity less, but maybe I just want things to be simpler.
Has anyone else ever had this feeling? Do people like the idea of having more constance, and being able to say "Yes this is who I am"
(Side note, I may be scared that if I actually be truthful to myself I wont like who I am, I enjoy no constraints about being a Sociopath, but the little voice of reason, however quiet it is, is just crying in the corner over my actions)