I have been trying to come to terms with my littleness in the recent past. My parents have worked with me to try and remove this quote-on-quote 'illness', telling me above all I must not regress. So I tried to play along. I resisted every thought that came in. For seven days. Then I broke down and had a panic attack. And here I am again.
Ugh, I know I am just venting, so let's try to make this a bit more of a question: I know it is virtually impossible to resist ABDL on a long-term basis, for us it is a permanent, pre-defined thing. But is it really true? How far can we push ourselves to reject our desires before it causes us personal harm?