Over a long period of time my incontinence gradually got worse and I was wearing diapers 24/7. I was still trying to use the toilet to pee, but was gradually ending up going in my diaper more and more. One day I decided that I would stop rushing to the toilet and just resign myself to the fact that I would use my diaper. It made my life so much easier. I suppose it was my real admission to myself that I was not just having accidents, but that I was incontinent and that it was not going to get better.