I have been reading this forum for some times. I am 43 years old and can't spell little as my name suggest. Unfortunately, I guess I will have to live with that. I have never been one to admit to my ABDL desires. I have done a lot of binge and purge for many years. I can remember diapers as far back as 9 years old. It hasn't been till the last year I have been able to admit to myself that I am an ABDL. Honestly, I still don't want it. I feel like the ABDL side of me conflicts with the other sides of me. But here I am and I hope will interacting with others, I might be able to explore this side of me. I have already learned a lot from everyone just listening so to speak.
I am fortunate that once a week (Fridays), I can work from home and be comfortable in my diapers alone when my wife and children are not around. I am able to focus while in diapers, onesie, and pacifier.
You will find (if I continue to write) that my English is horrible but I am good at math because I is an inkneer (engineer) and I have dyslexia which was identified late in life. I don't use it as an excuses but more an understanding of myself.
I have never told anyone about my desires due to being ashamed of them and resenting them, not even my wife who is my best friend and partner.
Thanks for being my secret support all!!!
Littleboyof40 (spelled correctly this time)