Today I thought I would dress 'little' for the day. I chose a Kins pull up diaper which is huge and Kins PUL pants to go over them. Then putting my mindset into a little's, I wanted to wear 'Big Boy' pants also. I then covered the PUL pants with a large pair of Elmo stretch briefs I bought at Walmart in the men's section. Over this I wore a onesie along with boyish looking socks, fleece pants with elastic waist and a pullover top. It was the closest I could come to dressing as a little to do my big people things today.
I know others here need to wear diapers and some, like myself, just want to wear diapers and play the little part at times. Being a little at times can be a stress relief for myself. I try not to analyze why I have the desire anymore since I have felt this way for around 40 years. I tried hard to suppress the feelings during my married years as my wife disliked anything to do with it. A year after she passed away the feelings returned. I have struggled with just accepting these feelings again for some time.
I decided today just to dress as I felt, imagining that I was a little, maybe not completely potty trained, and this is how I would be dressed. At times I miss not having a caregiver counterpart to be with but accept that at my age it may well never happen. I know a caregiver would be there to encourage me stay dry. I will see how the day goes as my choice of clothing does not make for easy toilet use.
I just thought I would share my feelings for today. I would like to say you have to grow older but you do not have to grow up. I know some people, like my late wife, would dispute that statement. I know to just accept the feelings and live life is more important now than to fret over how you dress. It is my choice and there is no one here to say otherwise now. Do the younger littles here ever struggle with their feelings this way?