So I've always been a DL, since I as early as I can remember, but just recently I've had problems with incontinence. I was always able to keep my DL side as just that, a thing that I indulged in on the side while I kept my personal and professional life separate. I would occasionally sleep in a diaper when I had the chance, but never had the desire to go full 24/7 or any want to require diapers... but that's what I've got now.
It started this summer when I would have a sudden urge to pee, and sometimes a bit would come out, I dismissed it as just something hanging on from when I had been diapered recently and just wasn't holding it hard enough. That idea changed one day when I was browsing the beer selection at a store one day and had an accident in light colored shorts. I grabbed a six pack to cover the front of my pants and walked up to the counter, checked out, and left. I was a little spooked that it was totally out of my control, but not enough to seek a doctor, it was only happening once a week or so. Then one night, I woke up to a wet bed with my girlfriend in it... then the same thing the next night! Time to talk to a urologist
I went to the urologist, half expecting him to tell me that it was all in my head, but sure enough he did some tests and told me I had bladder retention pretty bad. My bladder had stretched to hold almost 1400mL and was only draining to about 400mL, or as he explained it, it was like a bathtub that was 80% full all of the time, and easily spills over. He's done a lot more tests and hasn't found a reason yet, but I do know that my blood sugar is awesome and my prostate is very small (at least I'm healthy in other ways! Haha). I'm scheduled for an MRI to check my spine & a urodynamic test next month.
I've been in diapers 24/7 now for almost 2 months, and will be for at least another one. I wake up wet most mornings, and a couple days a week I have accidents during the day. It's really strange, because I'm torn between being embarrassed and tired of having to be diapered all the time with no breaks - I was used to be able to take a break whenever I wanted to, but still also enjoy it a bit.
I haven't told anyone except my girlfriend, who has been super supportive of me, and even once drunkenly asked if she could watch me change. As much as I want to let her in on my DL side, I was still self conscious about it and didn't let her. I still have that idea hanging on that it should be kept separate... but I guess I have to try to find some balance now?