sbmccue
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I have a tough time having a bowel movement anywhere - chronic constipation - and although I'm usually babysat once or twice weekly, it's hard to 'time' having a dirty diaper to coincide with the time my nanny spends with me. That said, the messy diaper isn't nearly the turn-on for me that having my dirty diaper changed is!
I remember having a number of messy-pants accidents as a pre-kindergartener and not enjoying them in the least, especially since my parents were very upset and punished me for them. When I first found diapers again as a young adult, the struggle to overcome toilet training and wet occupied me for some months. I'd been an 'active' AB for about a year when I first started talking with my babysitter about whether she'd change a dirty diaper. She agreed to try, and the effort caused her to gag and nearly throw up. I found, however, that I loved the sensation of being wiped clean.
A psychotherapist I talked with told me that enjoying a dirty diaper change was merely a manifestation of my 'rage' against women in general and my mother in particular. I've never thought myself particularly angry with my mom or with women generally, but I agreed that her explanation sounded ... well, rational.
Since it's very difficult for me to have a messy diaper on purpose, I can take it or leave it. If I'm alone, I don't find myself aroused by a wet or dirty diaper. If someone is changing me, on the other hand, I typically enjoy the experience immensely and often relive it in my mind.
I remember having a number of messy-pants accidents as a pre-kindergartener and not enjoying them in the least, especially since my parents were very upset and punished me for them. When I first found diapers again as a young adult, the struggle to overcome toilet training and wet occupied me for some months. I'd been an 'active' AB for about a year when I first started talking with my babysitter about whether she'd change a dirty diaper. She agreed to try, and the effort caused her to gag and nearly throw up. I found, however, that I loved the sensation of being wiped clean.
A psychotherapist I talked with told me that enjoying a dirty diaper change was merely a manifestation of my 'rage' against women in general and my mother in particular. I've never thought myself particularly angry with my mom or with women generally, but I agreed that her explanation sounded ... well, rational.
Since it's very difficult for me to have a messy diaper on purpose, I can take it or leave it. If I'm alone, I don't find myself aroused by a wet or dirty diaper. If someone is changing me, on the other hand, I typically enjoy the experience immensely and often relive it in my mind.