Recently I've had a thought: Some day, when I get into little space with someone, I really want to end up crying like a 4 year old. A real little meltdown, and have a "daddy" calm me down.
I even know why. I am a very impressionable and sensitive person. I take everything extremely personally and get offended easily. In my waking life I constantly need to keep this mask of emotional composure/poker face to survive, and that has lead me to dull my emotions over time. They were simply too much to live with in the real world.
So I guess I long for release of all the supressed emotional tension I have built inside all the time. I wanna cry like the little boy that I am.
Maybe one day laugh like one as well, but that's another matter
Anyone feel the same?