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    BabyJayk

    Default I just don't care.

    As this is sort of diaper related I figured I would go here instead of the off topic section. Here goes.


    So I have seen a lot of posts here were family and friends have either found out or come close to finding out about our ABDLness. It's scary. Or at least I thought it was supposed to be.

    Yesterday I had an incident with my stepfather that confirmed a theory that I have had for some time. That my immediate family knows, they just won't talk about me. Quick back story. I
    I have been caught twice. 1) I told on myself when I was 4 because I knew I wasn't supposed to feel this way and I was scared. Mom had my Grandpa smudge me, muttered something about a suppressed past life and told me to stop. 2) when I was 15 my younger brother was caught with porn, which caused my Mom to go back through our browser history in depth and she saw some things(this site for one it used to be open to teens) I forgot to delete. She immediately knew it was me because every few years I would make an attempt to ask her for help but each time she reasurred me (rather herself) about the power of the mind and some other hippie holistic drivel. Not this time. I told her I didn't think I could change who I am. She threatened to take me to a therapist, I laughed because that's what I had been going for for years only now I knew it wouldn't do any good. She made me sit down and talk to a therapist on the phone the next day. I told the therapist what was going on, what I am, that I felt I wasn't hurting anyone and that I was comfortable with this part of myself. The therapist called my Mom. That was the last I heard of it.

    Until yesterday.
    I stored some of my things from my old apartment in the family storage unit. This was during the move to NC and Mommy and I made sure that no little items where stored there what so ever. My stepfather, brought up some boxes of mine in the storage unit. He said that there were just a few boxes containing just one or two things "like tennis shoes or a diaper..." then he stopped and looked like he was about to have a stroke. To paint a picture for you we are roughly the same height but he is 160 soaking wet and I'm 190 (with 11% body fat might I add) with a thick neck and broad shoulders and tattoos up both arms that I started working on my first day off of Sand Hill 5 years ago. He looked like he thought I was going to rip him in half. Then I laughed and we just carried on with dinner.

    The point of all this? I realized, I don't care. Its not going to effect the way I live my life with them knowing. So who cares? If they can't accept me the way I am, if I'm required to change to suit them, then who needs them anyway? So who cares if they know?

    I'm by no means an exhibitionist, and I'm not going to go about doing anything to interfere with the lives of others. But the fear of being found out is basically gone.

    Has anybody else here had a similar experience?
    Last edited by BabyJayk; 24-Dec-2015 at 15:57.

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    Quote Originally Posted by BabyJayk View Post
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    So I have seen a lot of posts here were family and friends have either found out or come close to finding out about our ABDLness. It's scary. Or at least I thought it was supposed to be.

    [...] I wasn't hurting anyone and that I was comfortable with this part of myself. The therapist called my Mom. That was the last I heard of it.

    [...]

    The point of all this? I realized, I don't care. Its not going to effect the way I live my life with them knowing. So who cares? If they can't accept me the way I am, if I'm required to change to suit them, then who needs them anyway? So who cares if they know?

    I'm by no means an exhibitionist, and I'm not going to go about do anything to interfere with the.lives of others. But the fear of being found out is basically gone.

    Has anybody else here had a similar experience?
    Here's some more hippie holistic drivel, BabyJayk.

    Good for you!

    I'm not being the least bit sarcastic...

    It doesn't work this well for everyone (and yes, I had gone through it with a significant other)...

    "You got this!"

    Maybe your story, helps other too...

    Anyway, I'm glad that you seem to have reconciled with this!

    What next, will you do with your new found powers? (again, not sarcasm)

    Many thanks and, many blessings,
    -Marka

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    Some of my family members know about my diaper interests. My grandmother originally was the one buying diapers for my dolls and fed the desire in my earliest years. My mom got concerned about it since she noticed I was spending a lot of time diapering the dolls and focusing on that aspect of them. Years later, my mom caught me instant messaging with other supposed ABDLs (they were some bad people) and expressed serious concern about why I was interested in diapers. For years, I was embarrassed about it and ashamed every time I saw, heard of, or even talked about diapers. I think my mom believed that I had gravitated away from the diapers and lost interest in it until she caught me in a chat room. Things were different at that point though. I was much older and proved I had done my research about it. She asked if I wanted to talk to someone about it, but I told her that I'll do it on my own terms if I decide. Since then, we haven't talked about it.

    I still hide my diapers from family and, to my knowledge, no one knows that I own them. I plan to keep it that way too. Like you said, it does not interfere with anyone else and still allows me to function as a normal adult. Therefore, what's to worry about?

    Life is short and it really is about what you enjoy. I still worry sometimes about being found out that I actually wear them, but my embarrassment about this fetish is pretty much gone. No one can "turn off" this interest as much as we would like to at times. Be thankful that you are interested in something that is relatively common, tame, and does not invoke pain on anyone else. Once someone close to you has found out and become aware of your interest, it is much easier for you to move on. If they truly love you, they will not judge you based on this one aspect of your life. There is more to you than your padded bottom.

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    BabyJayk

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    Quote Originally Posted by Marka View Post
    Here's some more hippie holistic drivel, BabyJayk.

    Good for you!

    I'm not being the least bit sarcastic...

    It doesn't work this well for everyone (and yes, I had gone through it with a significant other)...

    "You got this!"

    Maybe your story, helps other too...

    Anyway, I'm glad that you seem to have reconciled with this!

    What next, will you do with your new found powers? (again, not sarcasm)

    Many thanks and, many blessings,
    -Marka
    Wow this one made me laugh (not Sarcasm)

    Merely would like to point out that if I had said my Christian parents had told me to pray about it that I would have heard a chorus of "oh those darn christians! They are so ignorant" instead I was told to "focus your energies...chakra...hold this crystal" equally unhelpful and when her ideas didn't work she blamed me. But because I'm calling a Wiccan ignorant you sound almost offended. Just trying to show Wiccans can be ignorant jerks too.

    Well I was kinda hoping maybe somebody who was having a tough time dealing with that fear of being found out might stumble across that experience someday and maybe in some way it might help. At the very least it might help them to not feel so alone.

    What am I going to do? Probably ride on home...curl up with my juice box and my blankie... and go nap nap.

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    MarchinBunny

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    Actually, I have a very similar story.

    For the longest time, I was always so concerned about this with my parents, that I hid it from them for many years, as I am sure most do anyway. However, I ended up getting caught around the age of 15, give or take. At the time I wasn't sure why I liked diapers or wetting the bed, I just knew I did. I got yelled at a lot by my Mom. Each and every time I got caught, I would get yelled at again. I really began to hate myself for it, and felt it was ruining my life. So I tried to stop, but the issue was, I couldn't. I think I actually became pretty much addicted to it. If I went without for even a week, I would just end up dreaming about it instead and still wet the bed.

    So I just started buying diapers to continue to try and keep it hidden. I figured if I chose a good place to hide them, I should be fine. Some time while I was going to college at the art institute, I ended up being found out again. My mom's husband found the diapers. At that very moment, I was getting kicked out of the house, and that was it ... I flipped. They where about to throw away my diapers .. I was like ... hell no, I purchased those .. I am taking them with me. Ever since then, I honestly couldn't care less what they think and I just decided to accept that this is something I like to do and there is nothing wrong with it. Now ... I sometimes even mention the diapers to them now and then XD. I will be all like, there are some cute diapers on sale.

    Of course it went even further than that. While I was going to Job Corps, so many people essentially found out that I was a bed wetter and such ... I began not caring anymore who knew.
    So by the time I moved back in with family, I was pretty much completely open with it. Though i did get into arguments with some of my family about it. i was outside in our neighborhood and while we where arguing I yelled at the top of my longs, "So what! Guess what everyone ... I like diapers!"

    o.o So ya ... I went through so much ... I no longer care. Granted it can still be embarrassing at times .. and I don't just tell people about it , but if they did find out ... I would just own it and be like "Ya ... I like diapers ... and?"

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    Quote Originally Posted by BabyJayk View Post
    Wow this one made me laugh (not Sarcasm)

    Merely would like to point out that if I had said my Christian parents had told me to pray about it that I would have heard a chorus of "oh those darn christians! They are so ignorant" instead I was told to "focus your energies...chakra...hold this crystal" equally unhelpful and when her ideas didn't work she blamed me. But because I'm calling a Wiccan ignorant you sound almost offended. Just trying to show Wiccans can be ignorant jerks too.

    Well I was kinda hoping maybe somebody who was having a tough time dealing with that fear of being found out might stumble across that experience someday and maybe in some way it might help. At the very least it might help them to not feel so alone.

    What am I going to do? Probably ride on home...curl up with my juice box and my blankie... and go nap nap.
    That made me laugh! (not sarcasm -still)

    Well, there's Hippies and then there's y'know hippies...

    I'm not offended or Wiccan for that matter... (maybe, I'm not really a hippie -damn!)

    You make a good point... whatever the going mantra or, dogma... whatever it is or isn't... moderation is key!

    Ignorance, is not bliss (at least not to those around you)...

    FWIW: I can see... "focus your energies" lol

    Otherwise, the only thing I would say about Chakras... Don't let the horse kick you in the chakras! That's really important!

    I've had my fun... and, you've been good sport about it... I don't wish to dilute your intended message... and, I am glad for it!

    I do hope for others to be inspired by your personal strength and experience! (definitely not sarcasm!)

    Sometimes, I'm a bit of a 'cheeky-monkey' ... though, I can and do get long-winded or, quite verbose... Apologies in advance - True!

    I'm glad that you're with us, I hope you'll stay!
    -Marka

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    Good stories that ring home in my remembrance of my youth. But I can top all of them.....lol


    I got busted in the military. Not really busted but during an inspection they saw the package and thought there must be something physically wrong with me and sent me to get checked out. I told the doctor about my love of diapers and he sent me a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist was puzzled but basically asked me a few questions :do you want to hurt yourself? "no" . do you want to hurt others? "no". do you hear voices in your head "no". does this condition interfere with your duty? "no".

    well........ them..... basically he said to hide them better and "dont ask dont tell". He wrote a note to my commander and I'm not sure what it said, but the issue never came up again.

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    There are a few within my family that I suppose semi-know.

    My grandma has twice now unintentionally seen me asleep with a diaper on, both when I was in my teens and staying over at her house for the night. My mom has (again, due to an unintended stroke of bad luck) happened upon a shipment of bambino teddies that I forgot to intercept in time as I usually do. She's also found opened packages of the very same bambino teddies in old bags of luggage. I had packed 4-6 diapers in some luggage and simply forgotten to unpack them.

    I'd agree with the OP though. My family is typically very, very, VERY traditional/frowns on anything quirky or out of the ordinary--but they do indeed love me, and I feel like over time, with them coming to understand that for me this is a mostly non-sexual, more comfort based thing, it's fairly innocent and not that big of a deal, so long as it doesn't negatively impact my life in other ways. For the most part, they ignore it. And I most certainty don't flaunt it---which is an arrangement that works out quite alright with me!

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    Misatoismywaifu

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    Still have Confidence issues over the ABDL thing. I treat this side of me more akin to sexual orientation and feel like if I'm "caught" or "come out" it's almost a representation of my sexual side and frankly, that's nobody's business but my significant other.

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    Haha...Marka used the word "dogma" so I thought I'd chime in. When I was in college my mom found my diapers and for many varied reasons, sent me to a psychiatrist. Fast forward many years, and when my wife found my diaper order, I rationally explained how this was my thing and had been my entire life. She has been very accepting.

    I also told my very best friend from college and he also was accepting. After a while it is a "so what" sort of thing. The funny thing is that the sun still comes up the next day, unless it's raining of course. Then it gets extinguished by all that water. There's a big hissing sound.

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