Okay to start my vacation I went to watch Star Wars The Force Awakens. NO SPOILERS! I truly loved the film. I became depressed shortly afterwords. It wasn't because the movie was over. It was because I really have no true destiny in my life. I'm stable, but don't see any reason to do anything. I see movies, Youtubers, storytalers, and even just love; I see point to life for everyone around me, but I can't see the light at the end of my own tunnel. I've been looking for years as some people might know, but I'm getting to the point where I would like to finally stop. If I'm meant for a rum drum life please let me die inside.