I have to get this off my chest, but I think I have two personalities.
I seem to flip between two personalities often, I'm not sure if there personalities or anything, but a part of me takes over, does things that it wouldn't, I feel emotionless, however I realize how powerful and manipulative I can be, I tend to get revenge on people who have caused me a great deal of pain mess with them etc, I don't like this part of me, I've come to the conclusion most people don't pay attention nor care about me, so I can get away with a lot of things, this personality I tend to be very egotistic, feel awesome, feel like I can do anything, I get things done etc, considering that the people caused me a lot of trauma or where involved in it in one way or another, this part of me sees it as justified, this part of me has flashbacks of abuse etc, the abuse involves a lot of blood and pain, though this part of me, wouldn't do it to a innocent person, only those who have caused me pain, It feels like I'm reliving the moment.
On the other hand, the other part of me, is a caring loving person, who feels sorry for people, This is a recent thing that has only been happening for the last year, this part of me is miserable, depressed, has a deeper understanding of myself that most people would have, feel worthless etc, this part of me feels guilty for doing things my other part of me does, this part of me rarely thinks about the abuse nor gets flashbacks, though this part of me is my true self, I'm this part for 70% of the day.
For the last year or so, I've switched from my true self, a caring loving person, to a different me? I know that sounds weird, but I seem to flip between the two.