I have read on here many a times, about the call of diapers, and the sexual pleasure that it brings on many people, but sometimes, i believe that their is more to diapers and AB things than people make out.. Let me explain.
in 1983 at the age of 8, i was admitted to my local hospital, into a children psychiatric ward, for assessment. I spent 5 months on the ward. being assessed by professionals from all over the UK. At the end of the 5 months the diagnosis that was given to my parents was as follows.
Your son is an 8 year old boy, with the mental age of a 2 year old, who is trying to act like an 18 year old.
Now, this was way before my love of AB things made an appearance, so what does it mean.. According to what the psychologists said i had the mental age of a 2 year old. (my current AB side), did my mentality stop improving once i hit 2, am i still of the mind of a 2 year old, Acting like an adult.?
There is one thing which happened to me, in 1982 when i was 7, I was a bed wetter, every night, my grandmother used to belt me every morning, for it. Accusing me of just looking for attention. Anyway, on the 27 December of 1982 (i remember it well and still have nightmares now of it) i was called and forced into a baby diaper, in front of family and friends, and made to sit in a pushchair. All because of my bed wetting, i was constantly told i was a baby, i was made to wear the diaper all night. (i desperately tried to poop that night, to teach my parents a lesson, but i couldn't. i knew i would get into serious trouble. but i just did not need to go).
Anyway.. another idea, was did this event cause me to step back in my mental state, Did the constant reminder of being in a diaper like a baby, turn my mental state back to that of a two year old, or is the two year old, from when i was actually 2. in other words, is my affliction for AB stuff, medical, psychological or something else.
Please be aware, i am not sexually active, i don't masturbate, and i do not like sex full stop.
There are a lot of questions i have regarding this, but no answers, i was debating writing a book, about my life, about my AB side, one that covers my mental state, and how life has lead me to this moment..
What you guys think.
Any advice would be appreciated.