My question to you is, no matter what you consider yourself to be, if you can remember, how did your feelings towards this first come to form or be? I have included my views, thoughts and why I think I came to be who I am today are. If you hate reading, which I do You may just continue on or post.
I have always been slightly different than others, at least what I have noticed. I am a dl. I have feelings of acting young, but like most say on this site, as an older toddler.
I picked up wearing diapers when I was 16 years old at a vacation I was on with my parents. There was a children's room in the over sized house we rented for the next few weeks on the beach. My first diaper was made by myself, to fit me. I remember packing them, and having my mother finding them the day we were packing because we were having trouble packing the car, so some items had to go. Very embarrassing, however I just made up a story how I was going to put them in someone's locker at school I didn't like.
I am now 21, and have experimented in many different ways. I will soon be writing a non-fictional story of myself.
Does anyone know of a website that has non-fictional, short stories of ones life in this field?
To get back on subject, a parents actions, if the parent is at all a DL, or anything similar, content wise to this website. Is it possible to, pass that down through other actions, behavior, raising of a child, to, his or her child. Also, to avoid the subject content of the below thread, my main question to anyone reading this is, if you would be so kind to reply:
How did your feelings towards this first form?
I found out recently, quite by accident, that my father was sleeping in a "oncie" type outfit... I do know, he knows nothing of my thinking on this subject. I am deeply in psychology and I am majoring in it. So i do realize, that some of a parents actions during the early stages of childhood, even such notions as "always enjoying childhood" can be past down in other ways. However, I always wonder, could it be genetic or past down in traits.
I am young I know, to understand my situation a little more, and because I am asking such a question like this, I will give a brief look into my past. The only person that was my friend was my father, I can remember only having a total of three friends in my school years of first grade all the way to the end of high school. Un-fortunately, these friendships never lasted. Therefore, I have an emptiness for my childhood. I was quiet, teased and hurt often in my school years. The only happiness I share from my past, is that of my fathers care which in my opinion really saved me from many different psychological issues in the future. Except this one, if you would call it that.
I have always found psychology fascinating, which is why I will make it my profession. The notion that almost all of a persons beliefs and personality is formed during childhood is very intriguing to me. Which is why I feel as though I must research it. The art of harming a child, either emotionally or physically, to me is not only morally wrong, but hurts past a point I cannot describe. Perhaps I have this feeling because of the way I was treated, negatively, from other children during my years of growing up.
My first choice was to go into the f.b.i. in a field to help stop, catch and prevent crimes against children. However, I think the best field for me, since I enjoy child psychology and forensics, is research. Research in the field where I can help learn and discover psychological growth of a child, and to help prevent negative thoughts in the future after the child has grown up. Because I am so apt on stopping another individual from hurting another human beings long term life, a main key to do this is during a persons childhood years... researching child psychology, and forensics to help stop crimes against children, seems to best help with what I am most interested in, and my goal in life.
So once again I ask, no matter what you consider yourself to be, if you can remember, how did these feelings first form?