Hello guys and sorry in advance if this thread offends anybody, I was just unsure of a safe place to discuss this maturely.
My girlfriend and I have been in a relationship for over a year, over this past year she has revealed to me her extensive desire to be controlled. She is very into BDSM and all that entails that lifestyle.(Keep in mind I had never been a dominant or submissive before) But she enjoys me controlling her outside of the bedroom as well, she is just a very submissive person you could say. in this past year she has also found out about my ABDL side, I frequently wear diapers around her and even into the intimate part of the bedroom depending on what I have planned that night. She never volunteers to wear diapers but will happily do it if I ask her to.
I'm not sure if any of you have what I would define as "hardcore" BDSM experience but I was considering taking it to an ABDL level.
I was thinking next time I tie her up I make her wear a diaper and give her an enema.
She has very little experience using diapers but loves when I make her lose control. My fear is that this INCREDIBLY LUCKY find of a girl (like seriously finding a girl into BDSM that wears diapers with me seems like a needle in a haystack) might not respond very well to it and this might ruin diapers for her eternally. (and I want a diapee wifey)
I'm sure the first response you would have for me would be to talk to her about it, but she HATES when I talk to her about what I'm going to do with her as she doesn't want to know what's going to happen next.
The most nervous part about all of this is that she insists that we do not have a safe-word.
But what it all boils down to is that I feel like I want to force her to be a DL, which probably is impossible.
Regardless of all of the material stated above, if I want a DL wife, and she isn't a DL, I should probably end things? My fear is that right now I am incredibly lucky and that I will never find another girl capable of accepting and even partially embracing my DL side. I just feel like Girl Diaper Lovers don't exist.
Sorry for the unorganized tangents within the thread... This may seem like a rant but I'm really just looking for guidance.
any advice would be greatly appreciated.