I am not sure if this location is the "correct" area to place this. If it is not, then please do move it to a more appropriate location; somehow, I felt like placing such in the "Announcements" section would be an exercise in egotism and nothing more. Anyway...
At approximately 0420 this morning, I asked Lukie in the IRC channel to ban me, i.e. at my own request. After some hesitation, he oblidged.
I would like to state that, unlike on previous occasions when I may have advocated an attributed stance of "isolation" to the actions of another person or persons, in this instance, such is inapplicable. In essence, i'm not blaming anyone.
Additionally, I would be grateful if this thread is not perceived as a plea for sympathy. Despite some believing sympathy and/or pity to be useful to the individual(s) concerned, such emotions only serve to appease feelings held by the person "giving" such sympathy and/or pity. And in any case, I would like to believe i'm not quite that pathetic.
Right, 'enuff waffling.
At the moment, i'm quite possibly not psychollogically stable. Things are about as bad for me at the moment as they could possibly be, short of death. I am about to be evicted because someone I once called a friend has not paid any rent for this entire year and does not intend to, despite him fraudulently obtaining money from myself in respect of my "share" under the guise of such money being used for such a purpose.
My health, haha. It's better than I don't even go there, suffice to say that a few months ago I was walking unaided.
Consequently, things just do not "add up" and I cannot, no matter how hard I try, cause them to "add up", psychologically. I have noticed recently that in the two IRC channels I regularly participate, that I have been conversing mostly sporadic distribes of non-sensical rubbish. If this is not the case, I apologise - maybe such should be taken as an indication as to how "screwed up" I am at the moment.
As a result, I feel it beneficial that I don't participate in either of these two IRC channels, one of which is #adisc. I feel that I shall "say" something truly retarded and just cause more problems, quite possibly moreso to myself than anyone else present.
Direct interaction with people doesn't seem like such a good idea right now. Whilst I shall remain on the forum, I don't think i'll be posting too much. In any case, i'm awaiting an imminent hospital admission for an investigation into my current health situation, or lack of health more accurately, during which time I shall somewhat obviously have no internet access.
Finally, I apologise if this distresses or annoys anyone. I have attempted to explain in the best way that I am aware. If it seems non-sensical, I apologise again similarly.
Please do not consider this a personal attack on anyone, it isn't. Some people I have met in real-life from this forum have been helpful, kind and supportive.
I guess I shall be back if I get through this, at some point, but to paraphrase an old quote "don't hold your breath".