I just came out of the closet a little bit ago on Facebook. I stared at the Post button for like 10 minutes before my finger would click it lol. Here's the message.
"I know I'm going to get some backlash for this, but here goes.
I'm transgender. Simply put, that means that I'm actually a girl inside a boy's body. I've been like this for as long as I can remember, even though I didn't know this was a thing until I was 13. Looking back, I can remember so many things from when I was a kid that backs this up, from wanting to wear Easter dresses like the girls in church, to feeling out-of-place in the boys' locker room when we started wearing uniforms, to making a comic about a world where gender roles were suddenly reversed. I often fantasized about being in that world. And that's only a small number of things I remember.
I am still Christian, though. I don't know if God made me this way or not, but I do know that He's trying to use this for some sort of plan. The suicide rate for transgenders is 31% (and 50% of transgenders attempt it before they're 20), higher than any other group in the world. I want to show other transgender people that they can still be loved, even by Christians, and that they are worth something. I want to reach out to every other transgender person to help them avoid suicide. How I'm going to do that, I'm still not sure, but I'll think of something.
That being said, I have not attempted suicide. I have thought about it many times, though, which is why I want to help others. It's scary being in a place where suicide looks like the only way out. One of the reasons I'm still here is because of my faith in God. It's my belief that He'll make things better in the end that keeps me going.
Some of you already know all of this. Most of you who know have been so supportive of me, and made me feel loved even when I didn't love myself. You made me feel like I was actually allowed to be myself. You're also part of the reason I'm still alive. Thank you.
I'm telling the rest of you because I'm sick of hiding. I'm sick of pretending to be someone I'm not. Some of you might think that sounds hypocritical, but you don't realize just how much I have to focus on not revealing who I really am when I'm around you. Apparently I'm not very good at it, though, because a lot of people think I'm gay when they first meet me.
If you're in denial about this, think back to when I was a kid. Were there any moments when you thought, “He's not like the other boys”? I can remember several.
That's all I have to say for now. Thank you for reading."
So far, the comments have been positive. But, they're from people who I knew would take it well. I'm still concerned about the "iffy" people...